A friend is one that knows you as you are, understands where you have been, accepts what you have become, and still, gently allows you to grow. – William Shakespeare

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❝ One Year Later

Who would have thought that even after a year, he'd remember me. Throughout my highschool life, he stood by me. He was my father, mother, brother, bestfriend and someone who would really remind you that you are worth it. Without him, honestly, I think I would have been dead even before I reach my first step in college.  

Even though he has left the country to work just to send his two younger siblings to college, when he came back, he never did forget about me and even apologized to me for not being here during the hard times I had been through, even wanting to make it up to me. Who would do that even? Recently, over the past few months, I have pushed so many people and all of the people I pushed away throughout the years, I think I can safely say that no matter what happens, I'd still be able to count on him no mater what happens. Even though he isn't really a part of my family, I feel like he is my only family.

He knows me inside and out. The one whose simple words make my heart jump in joy and can make me cry tears of joy just by saying that he's here for me. I know that those aren't just empy words because he's proven them to me on my way to surviving high school.

No words can describe how important he is to me. I'm just really happy right now that even for a short period of time, some I can really trust is here. He's here for me. He's here to care for me. He's here to listen to me and is even here to take away my fears. I don't know. He makes me think that there's still hope for me no matter how messed up I am. He doesn't judge me even though I'm on the verge of killing myself and would very much just hug me if he could. 

I hope that one day, I can finally meet him in person. To think that he did all of these for me through phone calls and text messages for the past 5 years of my life. Even though maybe I would never meet him, all I want is for him to be happy.

Onii-chan, daisuki da yo. Take care of me while you're still able to communicate with me okay? This time, I'd treasure your words even more.