just yeah

Wow, it is finally 3rd day in June.

I don't know what's wrong with me today but my mood just suddenly dropped and here I am, sitting on the couch, listening to some cute and happy korean songs (which just somehow turned out to be very sad to me).

Now that my mood is like this, yeah, I just remember about Kris, again.

No, not that I forgot him, I would never do that. but I sat here and the memories of him just played on my head. I seriously didn't even cry when I knew all his issues. I told myself that I have to be strong because it is so damn much harder for Kris and the members. As I said, I would forever support exo and Kris, no matter what.

And I just don't understand why, I am crying.

I kinda feel (erh am I too dramatic?) but well I just want to type my feelings out bcs this is the only way I probably could feel bit better.

(lol I even bought newest flavor icecream and finished it. Because I love sweets so much, I thought I would feel better but no. I failed. )

you may ignore this ok

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Milania_HDL #1 Jun 2, 2014 23:46:24

I hope both exo and kris will find their happiness, especially kris. Idk why but i feel more worried about him, maybe because he's alone out there. I hope he will not regret his decision ever

Milania_HDL #2 Jun 2, 2014 23:44:24

Omg we're not quite same, but still the same. When i found out about the issue, i cried so hard whenever im alone. Its so hard to keep a notmal face in front of my mum. I went on twitter and instagram, wrote what i think supporting comments to members that have insta. But i think i broke down completely when exo members (especially tao) talked about it.

It was very hard. I had to stop using my kpop instagram and my kpop twitter. Haven't log in twitter since then and thats a record because twitter is my life lol.

Idk what to think. At first i was quite mad at kris for leaving like that. But then exo started the "this is only the beginning" thing and i became mad at exo as well. When i look back, kris has this moments when he just looked sad during interview, so i thought maybe he's been quite unhappy. The only regret i had is that the way he left.

After the issue I also realized how much i was attached to them. Until today I couldn't even listen to their songs without breaking down. Unsubscribe to all translators and even smtown youtube channel bc it just hurts to see their faces. Im trying hard to forget them actually. Or at least i try to be a regular fan who listen to their song but didn't become to attached you know what i mean?

So yeah /thats me