Hi guys!  Long time no see! 

  How are you? I have A LOT to tell you but first I MISSED YOU SOOOOOO MUCH     It's been 5 months since I have last visited my second home, AsianFanFics...5 months!!! I'm glad to be back again but these happened beacuse of one reason. Now let me introduce you to my beautiful little reason:

Yes, it's a baby! Mommy's little girl, Hope Pattkinson. She was born on 20 April, at 9:43 AM. She was fully healty, weighing 2,6kg. She was so little even if she was delivered in term. Maybe it's my fault because I didn't know I was pregnant untill the end of the 2nd trimester (about 5 months almost 6) when I discovered that all the symptoms I had at the beginning of the pregnancy where not caused by a flu, overworking or hormonal dereglement. I was PREGNANT and I didn't know since I literally felt her hitting me hard like she was trying to tell me that she was there. To admit, I felt her 100 times before but I believed those were just cramps or stomach-aches. I was so obsesed with my sister's pregnancy and wedding and I was trying so hard to make her feel comfortable and stuffs which made me completly inattentive to realize she wasn't the only one pregnant! It's not all my fault because my *redthing* came normally (just skipped the 4th month) and I wasn't so fat (yes, I gained some weight but I didn't care about it). 

I was lying on the couch, watching some TVD ( teenager feels) and I felt something moving in my belly. I lifted my T-shirt and I was having a full view of my belly then I saw it and felt it the same time: a little leg hitting me. I was shocked, crying like hell and trembling because I was afraid that in these 5 months I have harmed the baby because I was working hard and stressing a lot. The first thing I did after I calmed down a little was to call my mother. I told her that I was pregnant and she told me to go and buy a pregnancy test and I was like: "Mom, I'm very pregnant"  She asked me if I was so sure and I said with all my mouth 'YES!'. She then congratulate me and she said she was happy to have not only a grandchild but two! (mine and my sister's) Then she asked me if I told my fiancée the news...Oh, I didn't and I was a little nervous to do so. It's not like he would not be happy, but we weren't married yet, we were young and more and more. I knew that I had to do it so I waited him to come back home so I opened my laptop, searching about pregnancy and things untill he came. Because of my stupidness I forgot to close the pages and he saw them. But to my surprise he didn't asked me why I was looking at those articles. He was not so excited and I could read the fatigue on his face. He took a shower and went to our room, watching TV after a long day or hard-working. 

 I didn't know what to say. Did he know about the pregnancy? No, he couldn't. Did he want me to leave and rise my baby on my own? Maybe. I was very angry of his anticipated decision so I slammed the bedroom's door and I told him that I was taking my stuff and leave if that makes him happy. He was looking at me with wide eyes and asked me what's wrong. I told him he knows very well what is wrong and that the baby needs to have both of the parents. I was looking at his shocked expression: "The baby?". He then came to me and hugged me and kissed me all over my face. He was almost crying. He called me silly and said he wouldn't do that to me and the 'BABY'. He didn't know about the pregnancy because he thought that I was looking for my sister's. He was really happy to find out he was going to become a father. 

In the next days we went to make an ultrasound to find if the baby is healthy and developed and also the gender. We were more than happy when we discovered we will have a little princess. She was developing normal and she didn't have health problems. THANKS GOD! I would never forgave me for harming my baby. I wasn't smoking or drinking and I was eating like a pregnant woman. 

We told everyone about the miracle and we happily went to shopping. I LOVE SHOPPING FOR MY GIRL!!! We bought everything which was pink and girly. Tipical me. 

For my last 4 months I was excited as every mother to be. Time was running fast and I was becoming huge. Here is a picture of me at 1 week before giving birth:

The day before giving birth felt like crap. I knew that the baby was coming soon. My water broke at 2 in the midnight and we rushed to the hospital. The staff behaved extraordinary. I remember a lot of pain and then a baby crying. That was the best moment in my life. Hearing my little monkey. I wanted so bad to hold her and when I did I couldn't stop crying. All my family was crying there so the room was full of emotions. My sister gave birth 3 weeks before me to a baby boy so everyone was waiting for the little princess to come. And when she did everyone was so so so happy. 

Now she is an healthy one month old baby getting used to this big and strange world. I can't wait to see her grow and I'm impatient for the moment when she is going to stole my shoes. kekeke XD