I want to become a leader.
Leaders don't cry in front of people who they don't want to see their tears. So why am I crying? Can I control why I am crying? Am I scared? Yes. Am I a leader? No. They tell me it's okay to cry when I have to, but, when I do, they tell me not to. Being a leader is taking care of who you love and want to care for. Can I even do that? I am no leader. I can only have people look down on me in the end. A fool. That's what I am. And a coward. I can't stand up to people who treat me badly.  There is only one I can stand up for. Girls' Generation. All their haters haven't seen the last of me. I know that they  can't always depend on me, but I can depend on them... Emotionally and mentally. Even though I taste the familiar taste of blood in my mouth from biting too hard to shut myself up, I don't feel physically weak; just emotionally. SNSD will help me though. I know it. After all, they do make my life complete. I love them, but they don't know that I exist. But I don't mind. They have other things to worry about. I know some don't approve of me liking SNSD, but they are all I've got. My last straw.