Firstly, you don't need to read this as well. Seriously guys, it's non kpop related.

So... yeah, I have a hard time. Hardest time I've ever had in my 18th life. I don't know when this will end.

I always be this epitome of a nice girl with a 'promising' future. You know, they expect me too much. I'm not that smart, I'm such a lazy , I don't know what I will do in my future, and I don't have many friend in my real life.

My point is: maybe I'm the baddest girl my mom ever gave birth.

When I fall down, I feel all alone. This is too much. In this case I'm afraid to cry because I know my mom will cry louder than me, I'm afraid to whine because my mom will whine longer than me.

So I bear this alone. This is scary. My face now is scary. My dark circle almost deeper than Seungri--plus it's swollen. I almost jumped because of my own reflection in the mirror. Hahaha.

Just in case someone outta there has a hard time too, remember:

1.

We ever almost never see this cute guy when he eliminated from Bigbang. How if he never come back to YG? How if he give up and stay still in Gwangju?

2.

We almost never 'enjoy' his iness when he was rejected in YG. How if he didn't diet and stay that...uhm...'big'? How if  he didn't come to audition again?

3.

We almost lose his smile when he was suspected in his car accident back then. How if he didn't rise up anymore? How if he stay still in his misery?

4. Don't forget that you're not alone.

Cheer up!

xxx