Quoting myself...

I'm different like that, I do want to be an idol. I'm actually going to start auditioning this fall, and i've been doing a lot to have a notable application. 

It's all i've ever wanted to do. You know, like not just some hobby that I got into, or like those people that just want to be famous JUST to be famous.

I've always loved music, and I genuinely enjoy performing more than anything else i've ever done in my life. I used to work as dancer, and it's the only thing that really makes me feel alive. 

I like being on a stage, and having people's eyes on me. I like hearing the sounds of the audience, and talking to them.

I stopped being able to do anything like that at 14. I moved.

Before that I was a dancer like I said, and I had attending a school that actually required dancing, acting, and singing lessons starting in kindergarten.

The last time I did any performance I was 16 and it was just because some lady dancing with hoola hoops on this small outdoor stage asked people walking by if they wanted to join in, and I did. I ended up stealing her show though ^^; because she was just hoola hooping and so was my sister (who I had talked into doing it too lol) but I was actually legit dancing while keeping my hoop up, so people stopped and were taking pics of me. xD

I can't wait to get that back.

I don't even feel alive these past couple of years, without music being a major part of my life. 

 

There are a lot of people that are like oh you should do something else, but they don't get it, because to most of them music is just a hobby, with me it's the only passion in my life. It's the only thing I love, and I want to be involved in it no matter what.

 

If I didn't pass an audition, i'd make music on my own, and maybe try getting a job working in kpop media.

 

I couldn't live my life without performing arts. 

 

I wouldn't really be alive.