The reason why I have been inactive for the past week is because when we got back from Thailand, my aunt died the next day. I was helping my mother and cousin with the funeral services so I was barely at home. It was tiring and depressing. 

We were having a mass earlier for my aunt and suddenly, the three days of trying to be strong was simply broken down. I was crying.Whenever I cried, I had difficulty with breathing which made my mom worrry for me.

All those sleepless nights, those nights of having to look down at her lifeless body. It was all too painful. 

She was like my 2nd mom. When my dad was at the hospital and my mokm rarely went home to take care of me, my aunt ws always there to treat me like one of her children. Years passed and I slowly drifted away from her. She made me mad a lot and she would blame me for a lot of things which made me isolate from her and my cousin.

Now I understand that one regret

The regret that you haven't said 'I Love You' to the person that just left the world without worrying us.

She died in her sleep. She was peaceful and she made it easier for the family to have less expenses.

This service was the last thing I could give to her.

As a payment. 

I love her, I really do.

But now I can't tell it to her physically anymore.

I have seen three deaths in my life. My father's, My grandmother's and now Hers.

It's true. You will never know about death if you have not seen it for yourself. 

I guess this was the reason why I loved stories with tradgic endings. 

Because for me the ending isn't the most important thing, it was how you spent your life.

I am posting this to remind you guys to always tell your loved ones those simple words. "I Love You." 

Cause you never know, they might leave you now, tomorrow or the next day and you will be upset with yourself if you forget to tell them this when they can't hear you anymore.