I just wanted to get this out.

I hate that I don't truly act like myself with people; like there are different versions of me for each situation.

Sometimes I'm worried that people think I'm "fake"

I'm worried that it'll look like I'm "fishing for compliments"

I'm sorry that I'm socially awkward and like extensive skinsip (borderline gay) with you if I consider you a (close?) friend

I hate that when I'm with the guys people may automatically assume I like them/him because of said skinship >.<

I'm sorry that I like extensive skinship with him because it's no strings attached- he's my big brother and I'm his little sister 

I apologize if said skinship seems like I'm leading you on

What if I'm love with the idea of a relationship- or what I feel for you was "induced" love?

I'm sorry that I have a weak personality at school. 

I'm worried that people would hate me.

I'm worried that I may be shallow

I think I'm ing up my life and I don't want my sister to do the same.

I know my sister will succeed more than me in exams :(

I don't want my sister to hate me

Will I succeed in life?

Even now I'm not exactly truthful

There ._.