Hello! I'm writing this blog post because I really don't know how to react to this incident..

Well, remember me asking you guys for help in choosing the gift for my friends who are going to singapore? Yeah, I bought it, together with my best friend. Let's just name her A. 

The friends who are supposed to go to the training told us that they will be going on friday, ( this happens around last month). A and I were sad about this and on thursday, we gave each of them jars, the jars are different from each other which we choose according to their personality and likes, we even put in some small notes. But for our best best friends, we printed out an A4 sized notes. I am not the type to say something like I like you, or I miss you. But since I thought that they are going, I decided to write it like that. I wrote it with sincere. At first, I kind of noticed that something is weird when they told me about the training thing. I mean, if they are going to training, what about the exams? And how come all of their parents let? Why are there so many people chosen. The test for the scholarship shouldn't be that easy and they usually don't accept so many people. I asked a guy friend of mine if it was just a joke but he said it's not, and they told me another lie, saying that they told A about going to amusement park and so on. I did feel suspicious but ended up believing them because I trust them.

We have a test on friday, and my best best friend, B, brought that subject's book home. And then another best frend, C, who followed my car to tuition( we have the same tuition) told me that R ( a guy friend) told her that this was just a joke. There's nothing like training. That time, I felt really angry. I know that it should be a joke but still...I wanted to wait until I am 100% sure that its a joke. 

My mood got really bad and we usually gather at the cafe next to our tuition place before going to tuition together. There is this girl, C. who was supposed to go too, she is also my best best friend. A and C kept asking me what's wrong when they saw my gloomy face and I even rejected the food the offered (Which I had never do because I am a food lover) Then, I saw C sitting down there, keep typing something on her phone. I got suspicious and quietly sat beside her and looked at her phone. At there, I found out that there's a group about apologizing to me and A plan. I got so angry that I pulled her hair in public and walked out of the cafe to the tuition place in anger. Everyone knew that something is wrong since I was so quiet and I looked like I was going to cry soon.

After that subject, I have another tuition at the same place, different subject. I was with A and a close guy friend. The guy friend then told us everything, turns out, he only found out that me and A are being fooled. A started to cry (she was a very weak hearted girl) seeing her cry makes me cry too and tbh, I am not someone who easily cries. People at school never see me cry in 10 years. That was the first time.

After tuition, the people who are involved in this prank apologized. C apologized together with another best best friend, D. But B did not until late at night. She made a group with me and A telling us that she is sorry and she is the one who planned this. BUT, her messages were so not sincere. For example, I'm sorry with a smiley face. I'm so creative right?( to think of this plan) and she said she wasn't going to give us back the gift. I'm okay with her not returning the gift but I'm so mad at the way she apologize. She kept on sending hihihi hehehe. When I scolded her for that, she replied with caps lock, sounding mad. And she was my best best friend.

Next day, I came in to the class, expecting people to apologize. Many did. But the closest ones didnt. which made me really really sad. C and D who were usually so close to me didnt even bother to talk to me! They talk to B like nothing happened. They walked past us as if we were strangers. I was really hurt. At last, we somehow talk to each other again because of A, she doesn't want us to separate so I just gave in. But inside, I was still mad. But only at one person which is B. I found out that C and D wanted to apologize but they were scared of me, however, B didnt care. She said I was the one who ignored her and she say she can't do anything if i ignore her and so let me be like that. So...what do you think of that? Would you feel the same way as I feel?

Let me explain more about B. She is a popular girl, pretty, smart, liked by many and is a prankster. However, for the several years I've known her, she never wanted to back down in arguments. She always thinks she is right (Sorry, just my opinion.). It's like, I'm fine with losing a friend since I've got so many other friends. I once asked her what will she do if we (best best friends of hers) ignore her. Then she reply me " It's okay, i"ll just go with the other girls. Got so many other friends". She is like the boss of the girls. For example, If i dont think i can join to hang out, she will say sth like "Ouh..too bad. Then no need to join. we will have some fun without you." she said that smiling with other friends. 

Indeed, we were involved in several fights and everytime, i back down. But, I really dont understand why should i back down again this time! I really want her to learn to back down, appreciate others more, respect! Dont take your jokes too far! She has never been left alone, without friends, so she just thinks that everyone likes her, she is the best, which i think is arrogant.But...no one dares to do that to her and I know I can't go against her alone. I don't want to make a scene. 

Give me some advice on this...I really don't know how should I feel...How should I treat her. I couldn't possibly treat her like my best best friend ever again....