My Stupid Self
I've had big dreams that can't come true anymore because I essed up my own stupid life,
I go from worse to worser (?) yeah my english is crappy too
I think everyone who has been reading my other posts must think i'm a very negatieve person,
maybe I am....
I'm negatieve, lonely, stupid and all other bad things you can come up with,
I made the wrongest choices a person could ever made,
I didn't know living with my mom, stepfather, 3 sisters and stepbrother could be so good,
I miss it so much, I thought I had an aweful life living with them, but even through everyone says I look better,
I don't feel better, I started to life with my boyfriend and then you start to know a person,
I wished I could go home, but I can't, I can't leave,
I feel like a prisoner,
why did I even made those choices,
Even through he 'gives' me everything I ask for,
I can't go out, I can't see my friends, i'm not allowed to go to work to earn my own money,
I need to do everything he says and I can't say a word or he gets mad,
I hated my life so much now,
when I still lived at home I dreamed about studying aboard, I wanted to life in Korea so badly but I knew I could make it true,
Now i'm here and I feel like i'm stuck, like I don't have a future anymore, or not the future I want to have,
I feel like it's impossible to go to Korea now,
Everyday I feel more worse and the hardest thing is,
everytime i'm with my familie they say I look better and happier, the thing is.......i'm not
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