I just have to write something, even if this is word vomit, I need to collect my thoughts physically.

Of course it would come to this, SM, of ing course. To think Yifan would actually choose leaving his precious friends, brothers, over taking any more of SM's , I really can't express the amount of pain it brings; my heart literally feels like its sinking in my chest, and I don't dare imagine what the members, the people close to them, and obviously Yifan himself feel like right now. I don't.

This is ludicrous. Utter ing bull. Even on a superficial level, I understand why Yifan, along with many other artistes, would choose to leave- it's got to do with the way companies like SM manage groups, that much is clear. The long, ridiculous working hours, the unreasonable rules (constant monitoring of cell phones etc, no dating, to name a few), the fact that so many groups are underpaid and more often than not, denied their salary altogether. It's simply, for lack of a better word, inhumane. Idols are humans, not little toy puppets for companies to put up shows with and earn money, for heaven's sake.

I just can't wrap my head around it; the fact that SM would mistreat Yifan, and all their artistes, for that matter, to the point that he would choose to leave the members that have been together through the hellish -and I'm 93% sure most were torturous- practices, all the performances, and all of the smiles and laughter (which I'm 120% sure there would have been many instances of). To the point that he would choose to leave his family. I just can't comprehend the amount of unfairness that Yifan must have felt. It really really breaks my heart, seeing how the actual sparks that Yifan give out on stage dull in the face of whatever SM has done. I just- SM (as well as other companies), please get your together and start treating your idols fairly.

As for Yifan, I admit, when the news first sank in, I sobbed like a baby for four hours straight- I just couldn't process it, but I will always respect his decisions, for good or for worse. If he has truly thought about the consequences, and if he feels that he'll be happier if he left SM, then by all means, I have no right to bash, hate, or blame him for anything. I'd like to believe that though he's just as afraid and heartbroken as we are (he is, after all human), he trusts in his own actions, and how everything'll play out.

Personally -and this is just my personal opinion- I would like nothing more than for SM to repent for mistreating its idols and for Yifan to return to EXO, because, frankly, it wouldn't be the same with 11 members. I'm honestly scared out of my wits, not to mention very unwilling, to imagine EXO without dorky, though subtly caring, and absolutely stunning Wu Yifan. It just wouldn't be the same.

All the same, I trust Yifan, Kris, duizhang, galaxy hyung, wink god, leader, dork (in short, whoever he chooses to be), and no matter what life decides to throw at EXO, I'll love them with all my heart.

We are one.