I don't know what to say.....

I feel like a walking zombie right now..

I don't know who to believe...

Oh Kris is my ing bias......

When they went back to Seoul from China Showcase, i feel like there's nothing wrong. they went back as 11...without Kris.. I feel like...ah maybe Kris wants to go somewhere else first....but....now.....

what should I do?

I can't cry I don't know why...but it hurts a lot...a lot. I can't breathe properly..I can't walk properly....I feel like it takes all of my energy out.