So, yeah.

I'm sick right now. I don't know what happened with me, but i'm sick. I went to two doctors already and they told me just same thing : acute-stress.

I can't be involved into a high-tension conversation or pressure situation or sad emotion because i'll losing my breath and my heart will beating so fast. Too fast until i could hear it on my ears. And head hurting so badly.

I don't even know how i could be this weak, but everything just too much for me now. My friends are not in good term right now and other causes finally led me to this condition. I just love them too much and this amount of problems UNFORTUNATELY reached my limit. My blood is A type. If i'm a machine, surely i'm already exploded. That's why i'm evacuated myself from my hostel and staying with my grandpa's now.

Even when my mom was giving me some advice, she raised her voice a bit and my breath already hitched. Yeah. Turned out everyone in my family trying to make the house in peaceful situation and giving me what i want. My glasses broken this morning and i immediately got the new one without any speech from my dad. That's new. The old glasses was broke because my own fault and i got the new one on the same day without any long speech.

No one raised their voice at me.

And look at those ing medicines, i just hope i could get some later.

The last doctor told me to go to a vacation, but no, i still have classes to go. And even she told my aunt to bring me to the hospital and make me running some heart tests. But no, i HOPE i won't get a heart attack. I just 20 ing years old.

I never know how it feel to be stressed out until i experienced it now.

If you said you stress and you still doing fine with your body, YOU HAVE NOT STRESSED YET.

I can't think about anything, i can't remember anything. Even i couldn't continue my splinter-cell game. You know that it needs so much patience.

I was 9gag-ing and i couldn't remember the last post i read. Screw it.

I just need to be relax now, i do need vacation, but just not this time.

I can't facing people, even my friends, my heart is not ready yet. Even my breath is kinda heavy when typing this. Too much emotion.

But you know what is A type first problem? They can't get relax easily.

I just hope i won't end up in mental clinic.

That's why, i'm going to be on hiatus for a while.

Maybe i could force myself to write something, but it'll just make you disappointed, guys. You guys expecting something funny from me, but i can't force myself to make comedy when my feeling is like this.

My mind just could plotting angst and drama right now, which is my really bad point for a genre.

I spent my day just with 9gag, my cat, my gecko, and texting with certain someone. The only person that i want to talk with at this moment.

I'm too weak right now and i hate this condition. No one will thinking that i got this kind of illness. The first doctor said this to me, "Kid, everyone thought you seems like don't have problems, i knew it. Stop acting tough."

And the second doctor kinda disbelieved when she figured out that i'm stress.

Acting tough is the only thing i could. My friends needs me to be strong.

The sad point is, where should i cry if i need to get rid of this 'tough mask'? It's not like i don't believe them.. I just wanted they always thinking that they could always rely on me.

But seems like i'm wrong. I hate this illness. I hate myself.

I met that someone kinda late, though.. /chuckles/

So, lot of readers called me 'funny author' but i got an acute-stress.

HOW PATHETIC. IRONIC.

I'll be back, i'll continue my fic, especially Is This For Real?, i know bunch of readers like it and thanks if you guys want keep your faith with me. That's also my favourite fic from myself /giggles/ and i'll continue it.

Feel free to talk to me, okay?

We're just texting, so i'll be fine.