Confessions

I wish I can turn back time. So that I can approach you more often than I did. I can smile at you more than I smiled to you. I can talk to you more than I did. Maybe we can change to be good friends or maybe not. But at least I can try. I should never let you go; out of my life. If not maybe today we are still friends.

Don't you miss talking to me? Watch me being a hyperactive girl as I am since the first time you know me? You aren't the same person that I knew in the past. You are like born again as a same person with new personality. I still remember the first time I approached you. I said hi and I asked you what time is it? Then I laughed as you were shocked I talked to you in a sudden.

Being in a friendzone really hurting me. FRIENDS We can only be friends. Fate doesn't love us to be together. I wonder... am I still your friend? Am I one of your friend? Am I a friend? Or... am I just a stranger? But.. you know me.YOU DID KNOW ME. You do. At least you knew me in the past but do you remember me today? Do you? I hope you do. Because..I do. I REMEMBER YOU and will never forget you.

I tried to forget you but I can't. Even I said I did, I'm lying. Yes, I'm LYING! You can see from my action becauseaction speaks louder than words. I tried to forget you but you keep showing yourself in front of me, in my way. You even came in my dreams. I'm so scared. In my dreams, you NEVER being a nice person to me. You keep scolding me, hating me and you... also KILLED me once. That's why I still can't manage myself to approach you again and say hi.

I'm scared. Scared of losing you and scared if what happened in my dreams come true. Can you at least open up and leave a space in your heart for me? I know you don't remember me. Not even my name but we can start again. We can pretend as strangers at first place. We can pretend as we are just 7-years-old kids that want to make friends.

I really want to talk to you.. share everything with you... smile to you.. but these all are impossible. I'm totally NO ONE to you. You don't care about me. You don't... I'm not even exist to you. My existance is nothing to you.. but there is one thing you need to know and you SHOULD know.YOU EXIST IN MY HEART FOR 7 YEARS and you'll always be the first in my heart. You'll always be the first thing I think of and you'll always be the first thing I care about. Eventhough in my place its a total different.

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JustADreamForUs #1 May 13, 2014 00:19:07

..... Everyone wants their own fairytale ending don't we? That's why it hurts so much and we always wished we were younger. Because in stories prince charmingly always save the damsels in distress and everything would be alright, everything is a straight direct path. But life isn't like rant, and then, you're lost not knowing what to do. I feel you please accept this huge huge HUGE hug /HUGS YOU TIGHTLY/

badassgal #2 May 11, 2014 06:19:38

That's very sad. Your love story is complicated.
But, past is past. Maybe, it takes time. We don't know how long it will take.
You should move on.
There will be someone better than him that deserves your heart and your love.
Don't worry, you'll be alright. :)

badass_exobaby #3 May 10, 2014 09:10:51

T.T
I'm with you, my friend!!

SpartAce_shipper13 #4 May 10, 2014 05:03:18

I know how it feels. I wish I can turn back the time. :')) Need anybody to talk to?

yoogilay #5 May 10, 2014 04:38:53

i know how it feels..It hurts. It was hard.

Baekna #6 May 10, 2014 04:05:51

i know how you feel...but i think i hurt more i not even his friend..and I AM A GIRL BEHIND A BUSH

v-kookiee #7 May 10, 2014 03:28:41

I'm sorry D: It must feel terrible, huh? :( He really needs to use brain, is he(or she) currently seeing a girl(or boy)? WAIT. HE DOESN'T REMEMBER YOU? LIKE REALLY? >:O