Feeling guilty

I read Don't Play With a Fangirl's Heart fanfic last night. There is a quote on that fanfic.

 

"You might have a new bias now. You might not like your previous biases before now compared before. But after some times, you will realize that you never really stopped caring for him and liking him. It's because he held a space in your heart no one can easily replace. And at the one point in your life, you cared for him so much." (Don't Play With a Fangirl's Heart)

 

When I read it, I feel guilty. I feel like I cheat on my bias. These days, I put my attention on my new bias and I seem like abandoning my previous bias. I don't know why.

 

I know that it's okay to have new bias or like another groups, but when it comes to me, I really put my attention to the new one and forget to the previous one.

 

I miss the old me. When I used to love him no matter what. When he is my all. When he is the only one in my heart. When I have no attention to the other groups.

 

You may say it's exaggerated or something else, I don't care. The only thing I want is be able to love my previous bias like I did before.

 

Did you do the same when you have new bias??

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Dianshiro #1
Everytime i thought about my old bias, i love them very much and i can't forget them after that. Don't worry, think about share your love for all, it's okay to focus on new bias, but old bias will not lost and removed from your heart. :D They will stay on your special side of heart. :D
cit___ #2
Yes, sometimes when I found new bias I will forgetting Kyuhyun.. I'm sorry Kyuhyun
Nichkhunieee #3
I can definitely related to that:) But I still remind myself every now and then that the people who got me into kpop is 2pm <3 So I always have this special place for them: ) exo Maybe be number 1 but 2pm will always be number 0 :) unbeatable and special: D
lilyraybay #4
yes i have changed biases so many times i cant even count
am i thoughtless?
peraosce #5
Well, me too..... I used to like Super Junior, but now I love SNSD, BUT not I realize that there's somewhere in my heart and mind that I can't forget Super Junior.... Thanks for remind me; )
kpopoppa #6
I have a lot of biases but I always know and make sure I pay a lot of attention to onew (my ultimate bias just a btw)
4ever_exotic #7
Yeah. Me too but I still love him and save his pics and get to know more about him. The thing is I just don't devote all my time to him but to my new bias.
MyStarryNight #8
I have other biases and groups but i sometimes pay attention to a specific group so he will always be in my mind. As long you love him he will always be with you.
Midnight_Black #9
Don't feel guilty, as long as that guy is still in your heart, the amount of attention you give to the other is uncomparable. For like the quote says, that bias will hold a place in your heart forever.
I really don't know if i'm helping because I usually don't know how this feels like. In my defense, I was a definite fangirl for this guy, but as time passes by I start to... lose affection? I start to see them as another human being whom I just adore their awesome singing and dancing qualities. But I also see this as a good thing. For then I realize they ARE human beings not gods (like how sasaeng would refer them too. -_- ), meaning I see their faults and I adore them even more that way. I guess then I have my feelings returning again but I think even more greater, however it's feelings of the fact that they are working for their dream.
Argh this was slightly cheesy, plus I got off topic.

What I'm trying to say is, no matter what he will hold a place in your heart even if time goes on.
k0j3t4 #10
I only have one truly in my heart. I keep him always in my heart. But sometimes I get new bias and still I love him. So, I do not feel guilty. But I felt guilty when I said 'I will always love him' while later I forget about him. I did it once coz I got this new forever bias. :) won't let it happen again.
chocolakay #11
well i didn't feel guilty. i love my fangirling attitude now. old me will bash someone who try to get near him (me being too obsessive because all i know is about him and everything is about him), but now i learn the art of shiping and multifandoming and here i am! i get to know many artist, enjoy many kind of music, and have many new bias but i still look after him in some occassion and bully him lol
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