CAN I JUST SAY THAT IM ING EXHAUSTED NOW? I JUST CAN'T STOP MYSELF FROM THINKING THAT IT'S BETTER IF I LEAVE THE HOUSE AND LIVE FREE FROM THOSE PEOPLE WHO BRING ME DOWN. I WANTED TO BE HEARD.

" BE HEARD. BE STRONG. BE PROUD."

THESE LYRICS KEEPS ON LINGERING IN MY HEAD. IT KEEPS ON PLAYING. AGAIN AND AGAIN. WHY? BECAUSE I KOW THAT IT IS TIME. TIEM FOR ME TO BE HEARD. TIME FOR ME TO SPEAK UP AND TELL THE WORLD WHAT I REALLY FEEL. BUT YOU ALL KNOW WHAT'S THE ING PROBLEM? IT'S THOSE PEOPLE AROUND ME. I DON'T CARE ABOUT THEM. REALLY, BUT IT'S MAKING ME SICK! THERE ARE TIMES WHEN I JUST WANT TO KILL SOMEONE BECAUSE I REALLY REALLY HATE HIM. AND I DON'T CARE IF I'LL END UP IN JAIL.

I HAVE FAILED A LOT OF TIMES. I TRIED TO GET MYSELF UP BUT WHAT HAPPENED? NOTHING. MY DREAMS. THE ONLY THING THAT I WANT IN THIS WORLD IS SLIPPING AWAY. AND THEN THERE'S ME AND MY PROBLEMS, PROBLEMS THAT AREN'T NORMAL AT ALL.

/sigh. I JUST WANT TO BE A SOMEBODY. NOT A NOBODY. SOMEBODY THAT WOULD WANT TO MAKE THE PEOPLE REALIZE WHAT LIFE REALLY MEANS. WHAT FUTURE REALLY MEANS. I WANTED TO BE THAT KIND OF SOMEBODY. I WISH I COULD GET A CHANCE..