JUST CLICK OUT IF YOU THINK THIS IS STUPID...

not meant to post my feelings here.. but i felt here was better than facebook or twitter..

heartbreak may be uninvetible but i hope you can get through it too.. 

losing your first love especially when you were hoping they'd stay your last love too.

i wish people would stop telling me to cheer up and that i need to get over it. it just angers me, even if thats not what is intended. 

you can't just smile and laugh.. when you spent so much time together... when you were kind of engaged to that person. when you woke up next to that person. when that person has been there through thick and thin... i understand that i'm young... I understand that nothing goes as planned.. but we saw and planned our future together.. Its so hard for me to pretend and smile. I gave myself four days to cry.. 

it's been only 6 days but it feels like hell. i found myself thinking about him a few times, even if i kept busy. i even have to force myself to sleep and eat.. it feels like a nightmare and if you could wake up, that person will be standing there wiating for you. 

I get that i will move on.. but it will take me some time. i wish people would understand that.

I just hope that if anyone is heartbroken or dealing with a break up.. it's okay to feel sad or angry... TAKE YOUR TIME TO HEAL. DONT LET SOMEONE TELL YOU HOW YOU SHOULD FEEL. You know when you're ready to move on.

next post will probably be an update.. so if you don't care.. you know not to click on it. hehe thanks.