I'm being a little bit sad because I 'lost' my friend and only friend in school and she completely ignores me when I try to speak to her. The thing is we kind of had a fight , but to be honest all the fights we had , the next day we were already in good terms and i don't ing know why the she is acting like a mother ing kid and won't even spare me a freaking look. 

Are you ing serious ? This is driving me ing crazy! For real! Like it might be because she is failing the year , BUT THAT'S NOT MY ING FAULT THAT SHE KEPT GETTING TOO MUCH FOCUSED ON AND HER BOYFRIEND AND ESCAPING HER PARENTS TO GO MEET HIM.

IT'S NOT MY ING FAULT!

It's not my fault she kept getting high as and went to class like that and didn't pay a of attention;

Not my fault acting like a and meet all the boys in class , she always said 'I know he wants me, He stared at me with those seductive eyes.' , WTF ?! SHE'S ONLY 16 AND KEEP THINKING ABOUT AND , BUT THAT'S HORMONE'S FAULT, NOT MINE!

It's not my fault that she has over proctetive parents , unlike mine- I curse at them and they curse me back calling me a piece of and all sorts of insults.

It's not my fault her sister is pregnant ; i have ing 3 sisters and 1 brother and all them couldn't give a about me.

It's not my fault she's too shy  when the teacher asks her a simple quesiton and then acts like some sort of superstar outside the classroom;

Don't I have enough to take in at home ? Why do i have to take up more at school ?

her , she's so straightforward that she keeps avoiding me , 'I'm a face to face girl. Don't with me' RIGHT THAT'S WHY WHE I ING ASKED YOU WHAT I DID WRONG YOU IGNORED ME !!!!!!!!! 

Was I a bad friend ? Was it because I'm too insecure about myself ? Was it because I annoyed you too much ? Was t because I didn't pay much attention to what you said ? Was it because I'm not good enogh as a friend ? Was it because I didn't thank you for your help ? Was it because I've being nothing to you and just some ing abandoned puppy ? Because that's what I'm feeling like.

And another issue is - this srsly - love.

Why do thin , mean girls always bully fat , chubby girls because 'you're too fat for that guy , you're too fat he will get squiished, you're too  blablablablabla' , but I don't see them with someone. I don't see them attached to any boy that admires and likes her for her appearance and . BUT NOOOOOOOOOO THOSE GIRLS ARE TOO BUSY BEING ES AND SENDING GROSS STARED TO THE CHUBBY GIRLS AND YOU KNOW WHAT I'M ONE OF THOSE CHUBBY GIRLS.

BUT I ALWAYS LIKED- no - I LOVE SPORTS BUT BECAUSE OF MY HEREDITY FROM MY LOVELY GRAND OR WHO THE HELL I DON'T CARE , I GOT CHUBBY THIGHS. IT'S FRUSTRATING WHEN SOMEONE LOOKS AT UP AND THINKS THAT YOU EAT TOO MUCH BECAUSE YOU'RE FAT/CHUBBY , THAT'S THE CONTRARY I EXERCISE ALOT AND I ENOUGH FO MY AGE SO DON'T BACH ON ME BECAUSE OF MY THIGHS , STOMACH AND WHATSOVER.

And isn't it so ing frustrating to want to give your love to someone and there's no one to greceive it?

I just want someone to make me forget my worries with a simple kiss , hug i don't care . It's so hard to look at everyone being happy and lovely as and there's this huge black hole and isn't so stressful when  that black hole is yourself ?

So ing mad and all this .

Sorry I'm feeling unloved and ing stressed out.

Sorry for cursing a lot.