One year ago today, the ground I stood on threatened to give. Today, one year to the day after that overwhelming pain consumed me, The ground is finally crumbling. And I'm too tired to run to safety anymore.

April 19, 2013 - Francis "Jack" Ryder

May 10, 2013 - Devon Gould

May 12, 2013 - Arthur Doucette, Sr.

November 14, 2013 - Sebastian Abt

December 17, 2013 - Nicholas Dalbec

January 30, 2014 - Carole Wheeler

February 10, 2014 - Frederick "Rick" Bewersdorf III

April 19, 2014 - Angel Benjamin, and her unborn daughter.

This is a list of the people in my life who have died in the last year.

I've been in the hospital more than once in this time because there's something about the pain that I just can't take.

Tonight, I feel more broken than I ever have.

I don't know what to do.

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tah_dah_kpop #1 Apr 20, 2014 21:47:42

I think you need to think about all of the things (and people) that you still have with you. It might not seem right, but sometimes you need to distract yourself after something like this happens. You're stronger than your grief is, but you'll need help to conquer it, so surround yourself with friends and loved ones. Remember what makes you happy, because that is the stuff you have to live for. You don't want to end up as a name on someone else's list.

Shiny_A_plus #2 Apr 19, 2014 23:06:12

T_T I saw your FB post earlier and have seen posts like that in the past.. I don't even know what to say. Dealing with death is the worst thing ever, I know from experience too. It's shocking how many people you've lost this year alone. I don't know the circumstances, but I am sorry you have to go through this regardless. Try to stay strong and hope for better days to come soon. <3 You're not alone.