This already happen a long time ago but I think my patience has run out thin these day.. I don't even know if I can call them 'friends' anymore. I know that we have new friends now but you shouldn't forget about yout oldfriend, right? Anyway, not all of them like that.. but there's one person that used to be my bestest friend in college.

She started to change when she has a boyfriend. She had some problem (that was a complete misunderstanding) with my other friend and I won't say that I'm the one who reconcile them, but I TRIED VERY HARD to clear the misunderstanding between them. I told A (my best friend) that B (my other friend) about the misunderstanding and I also did the same with B. And now they alright like they used to be. I'm happy. Seriously.

Anyway, I understand if A wants to spend her time with her boyfriend (they live faaaar away from each other and can only meet at campus or if they dating) and I don't really care if they kinda ignore me when they're dating (I always stay with A because really I feel closer with her than with anyone else). But A, she really has an issue with her mood. One time she can be all happy and cuddly with me but another time she looks upset and not happy that I'm there (with other friends not only her boyfriend) and if she got her moody attack, I don't know why but I always be the one who got cold shrug from her. The others got the same treatment and I'M THE ONLY ONE WHO GOT THE COLD SHRUG. And she doesn't cling to me anymore. I feel like I'm an outsider.

Do you know how hurt is that? I'm the type who got attached badly to someone once I attached to them. It feels like, she easily forget me when she got new friends. I still think of her as my best friend. I have other friends too, but not as close as her.

I feel betrayed.

All this time everytime she did that (trust me I lost count on how much she scold me and it was a lot) I told myself that she has a mood issue and she'd be alright later. But I lost patience.. it hurts to be treated like an unwanted person.

Sorry for this spam. I just had to let my anger out somehow. And I can't think of anything except aff. I write this right after she has her moody attack today. Seriously how come someone can be so immature? All of them are moody es that will lash out whenever they got bad mood.