so right now i'm crying over exo. as in...shedding real tears. 1% water, 99% feelings. i feel pathetic oh no yahaha;
so my mom scolded me that i live in my fantasies way too often and that they are useless and would bring me nothing in life. but what she doesn't know is that my life made a 180 degree turn since i discovered kpop and you guys. i have met so many great people. strangers who are way better than people i know in real life. idols who made me genuinely feel happy and made me feel heaven even for only three or four minutes.

i know my fantasies won't come true. i know i'll never meet exo. i know i'll never get to hug them. i know i can never hear them say hi to me. i know i can never have enough money to watch their concert. that is the harsh reality of being a fangirl. 

luck is with me when my mom allows me to buy an album or merchandise. and i'm absolutely grateful.

let's face it. the eyes of the idol we meet are mere pictures on screens. 

so fans who can go to concerts, have tons and tons of merch, have all the albums, have selfies with their bias, shared a hug with them. be thankful.
unlike us...who are on the other side of the great wall of china.