I'm emotional right now I'm not even using caps except for I's. I honestly just can't control it. It's not SeBaek or anything sad really. It's Oh Sehun and his awesomeness and perfection. I cannot. I feel like crying but I can't because oh my god my mom is in the same room and I'm lucky she isn't watching me type this. But seriously. I have a lot of feelings for Oh Sehun, okay? I know I just started being an EXOtic since Jan this year and you can barely categorize me as a hardcore or a true fan but in the few months of catching up with what I'd been missing, I think I learnt so much about the twelve of them. While I love all of them equally, Sehun has a special place, if you know what I mean? I don't know. He's such a happy-looking person even though usually he doesn't have an expression. He's.. I don't even know and I don't think I will ever know because this is unexplainable. The fact that he prays for his hyungs and for them to be together forever and cries while saying a message to them just warms my heart. He's not perfect, no one is. But I find that I always use the word on him because I don't know, his imperfections make him perfect. I want to be able to still be here and grow along with EXO because I honestly love them and it isn't just because of how attractive they look 99% of the time. I've never been on such an emotional roller coaster ride until EXO came into my life and even though sometimes it's just !!!! most of the time they're the reason I smile. I feel like there are so many things to say about Sehun but no amount of words would do it justice. He is unexplainable and loved by many. I never regretted a single moment. 

I love you, Sehun. Always have, always will. 

And this vid is just too perf I was almost crying along if not for the presence of other human being around me. I just cannot when guys cry, let alone a guy that I adore so dearly. I even cried when Tao and Luhan cried while watching Miracle In The 7th Cell (I think?) during their EXO showtime. I just have a lot of feelings okay and Sehun is a big part of my emotions. 

//crawls away to cry again//