Mixblood.

The title itself is a weird word. I couldn't find the right term for this, so I decided to name it mixblood.

I was born in a really unique family.

My mom is pure Chinese with Buddhist as her original religion.

My dad is half chinese-half malay with Muslim as his original religion.

Fate made both of them encounter each other and they get married.

My mom changed her religion to Muslim, kinda like following my father.

If we read this in mathematical ways, my race would be 75% Chinese and 25% Malay.

I have a Chinese face but at the same time, if I said to people that I'm Malay, they would believe me. Well, sometimes. One of my teacher still kinda awkward knowing that I'm Muslim.

My eyes are slight bigger, my skin is slightly darker and moreover, my facial features became somehow mix-_-

But I love my face and there's nothing wrong with it.

The hardest part of becoming a mixblood is the culture struck.

Muslims wore much covered clothes and clothing attire. But, I grew up having Chinese people around me. My clothes kinda more revealing than Muslims people should wear.

And, this is my fault for not wearing a much covered clothes.

The problem is the new environment that I'm living right now. My family moved to a neighbourhood that almost the population consists of Muslim. 

At first it was fine. I was still considered young at that particular time, and they don't judge my appearance.

But as I grew up, here's come the problem. They started to bickering about the clothes I'm wearing. 

What's wrong wearing a slight shorter pants? I grew up wearing those type of pants and it'll be hard for me to change my fashion style.

Moreover, because of my chinese features like face, life have been harder for me. 

The environment I was currently live in consists of various of rebellious teens. I can't go out at night to my local grocery store because of the teenage boy who love to sitting outside an internet cafe. I figure it that it wouldn't be safe for me too.

Whenever I pass by, they would adress me as chinese girl or usually they would chanting few not logical word that definitely not in any mandarin dictionary, just to mock on me.

The best thing becoming a mixblood is you get to celebrate two major event in a year.

For me, that would be Lebaran and Chinese new year.

I would go back to my father's hometown on Lebaran period and get in contact with my cousins. Not to mention the Fasting event that only occur 1 month in a year.

On Chinese new year, I would go to my grandma's house from my mother side to gain 'Hong bao'.

My social boundaries?

That's the awesome part. I get to know people easily(Thanks to my face) and I could easily fit in the society.

I don't know if this happened to other people, but my tongue is somehow could easily pronounced another language.

Until now, I can speak in 4 language. Indonesian, English, Mandarin and hokkien(Simplify of cantonese)

Honestly, I don't know why I'm writing this and share it here. Maybe, there's part of me that want to let my heart out. 

Becoming a mixblood has its own ups and downs. But the thing is, just enjoy your life.

By the way, I'm a faithful Muslim. I don't eat pork or ham or any animal that Muslim disbanded to eat. I do my prayer and I read Al quran. I went to mosque and my family usually do gathering with the neighbours.

Comment down below if you have similar problem with me. Or maybe you want to give me few advice because I desperately need one.

Xoxo, Red.