Stressed and Depressed

Cutting was the best escape in my life

but I can't do that anymore

i used to pour out my feelings to people

 But they don't actually care

 

my mom found out about my grades.. And I'm not exaggerating when I say this:

my grades are horrible

i have like C's and below

 

i went to the doctor

they said I need to lose wight cuz I'm overweight

well I've been dieting and exercising but none of it helped me lose weight

 

today I went to the dentist

i have seven cavities

SEVEN

i brush my teeth for 3 minutes, floss, then brush again for 5

why do I have so many cavities?

my sister brushed for 2 minutes

 My brothers the same

and they don't even floss

they have no cavities

 

im trying so hard but the outcome is

my parents have to pay $570 for my fillings

cuz I'm such a up

 

but in school I can fake that everything's okay

nobody asks so I have nobody to say this to

no one really cares

 

i ing hate myself

 

but yknow 

just put on a smile, cute clothes, and act like you're the best person in the world

no one will ever notice

 

i act funny and stuff

but I'm just lame tbh.

 

 

 

 

Suicide seems like a good option again.

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ExoMsKungfuPandaTao #1
It seems like we have the same ing problems. I hate my self and everything i do i get criticised for. I went to the dentist and i have to get fillings too. It inh . I have to get braces also. I moved to a different school cuz i was getting bullied so bad. It's hard being there too. I get bullied not as bad but i still get it pretty bad. I hang out with this girl that is considered a "loser" i try to tell everyone she's not so bad but they look at you and say "oh your ing ugly". I'm the only supposedly "Emo" person in the school. We have to wear a uniform everyday right? But then we can dress down of Fri. When i dress down i wear black jeans and a black jacket that covers my scars. We aren't allowed to wear bracelets so i walk around with these HUGE long cuts on my legs and people stare. I ing hate it. It does seem like suicide is the only way out. But i do agree with the people that commented as well "Uou were put on this planet for a reason" and i believe i am used as a stress reliever
SammiCass
#2
You were put on this planet for a reason, you just haven't found it. I haven't either but someday I will.

Life is just giving you hard time because something great is about to happen. There's always a storm before a rainbow~

So please don't do it.

Please
SammiCass
#3
Please don't commit suicide, please don't.

I understand you're really stressed and everything, and that's understandable, but that's the way life works. (I went to the dentist and I had 4 cavities and I brush my teeth every night, my sister doesn't even really brush hers and she had 1)

You're not lame! You're an amazing person, and anyone who can't recognize that is dumb!

Don't ever feel like you weren't meant to be on this planet, everyone deserves a chance at life. When you feel all alone, know someone out there cares. I've never met you in person, yet I still care for you. So if you feel like you have nobody, just know you have me~

Grades don't define how smart you are, or how good of a person you are, or you. They're just letters. I get frustrated all the time because of school, but school isn't life.
loyal4ygfamily5ever #4
no, please, suicide isn't a good option. grades don't determine who you are as a person, that would be just as stupid as saying looks determine who you are a person.

I don't know if you believe this or not but... there are people who really do love you and when all humans fail, God loves you. Jesus died on the cross for you because he loves you. it sounds.. cliche I guess but it's true and he wants you to be truly happy even more than you because he knows what it's like to have everyone desert you. his best friend betrayed him.

and so what if the stuffing doctor thinks your overweight?? if you're healthy then maybe the doctor should just shut up and get stuffed.

But please, don't ever think you were just mistake or you cause more trouble than you're worth. EVERYONE is precious and you are no exception. God made you specially. and please don't ever think no one cares. they do and sometimes... people don't act or look like they care but they just don't know what to say or even that they need to say or act it. if you ever need hugs and/or someone to talk to I'm right here and I know a lot of other people would be as well.
Red_lantern #5
Firstly, think positive. Then things would be better.
allyssacheleth #6
hey dear..
I know how you feel because I've been depressed due to family problems. My life is crazy as well. I tried going away from home- good thing my grandma found me. I tried killing myself too but I realized..NO WE SHOULDN'T DO THAT.
I might not be fat or anything but I assure you, evrything will be alright, Set your goals and try harder :)
eunhyuksgal
#7
Hey there...

Just happened to read this and if this is really you talking I just wanted to let you know that even though we might be strangers I'm here for you.

Suicide is not an option though I cannot say that your pain is unjustified. But I can promise you that I will be able to give you some advice and make you feel a tad bit better. Dont hesitate to PM me alright dear?

Hang in there. Know at least there's someone who cares.