So, this was my english homework and I decided to share it with you guys. :)

warning: Read at your own risk, it is similiar to one of my blog post I posted some time ago (title: I Am A Failure).

( subject: Write about an unfair situation you remember;

- Describe what happened.

-Explain how you felt.

-Say what you think you should have done)

The most unfair situation I have gone through was when I was in the 8th grade, when we had an biology exam.

I had studied hard for that exam for almost four long days. In those days, I only had 5-6 hours to sleep just to study for that difficult test, I even dreamt about the exam... (A/N: OTL) I was exhausted but I didn't give up, I couldn't, because the test was slowly but surely coming. When the day finally came, I gave my best on the test and even I myself admitted that I did pretty well. I was sure I had beaten one of my bestfriends, Joey. (A/N: I only have two true best friends OTL but I think some of you already know the other one, yes, it's Erika! ^0^)

Even though me and Joey were best friends and we were pretty much 'sticked' togehter all the time, I just didn't like her being better than me. It made me depressed, angry, annoyed, furious, whatever... it just made me think that I am a little piece of unintelligent and useless peace of that I 'lost' to my best friends I have ever had. Of course I cherish them and I really love them but sometimes, I just really hate them... (A/N: no offense!) 

When the teacher returned our tests to us, I was shocked when I preceived the 'Befriedigend' (A/N: It would be a C in english. You may think that I am exaggerating but it is that bad to me.) on the back of my test in an unconspicuous deep red colour. It was like a slap in my face. I couldn't handle the shock and all kinds of emotions and feels rushed through me like a torrential wave and that was enough to made my mind go blank. I just suddenly stopped thinking about anything.

But what more unbelievable was that Joey, who didn't even study much for that bio exam, got a "Sehr Gut" (A/N: A) with full marks. That was when something clicked inside my head. I lost to her ...again. 

I was already depressed and angry enough but what made everything worse was that Joey cried, not in happiness but because she didn't want the good result. That moment, I cried as well. I mean, how ridiculous and stupid could someone be?! She did not only despise her good result, she even cried because, like I said... She. Did. Not. Want. Her. Result, that couldn't be more perfect. I really don't know how it was even possible for me to be friends with her and that, the best friends...

In the end, I decided to just give up, there was no use and I see no point of compairing myself with someone as clever and as excellent as Joey and Erika. Because, in the end, I am the ridiculous fool.

I should have left it be and give up from the beginning. If I did so, I wouldn't have made a fool out of me

But even now, I still have the urge and intention to compare myself with them (A/N: Mostly Joey since she is less clever than Erika and we are more alike... XD) and do stupid things without thinking. Sometimes, I just can't control myself, I am just too ambitious...? (A/N: Well, this is me. /le sigh/)

Haha, I am sure many of you are starting to dislike me now... :')

But oh well, I can't do anything about it.

Bye, I have to go update my story now. ~