Mom: '' [Dad's name] are you going to manifacture a key to me for this apartment?''

Dad: No; god knows what-

Mom - In Swedish: '' How dissapointed I am on you.''

Walks away.

Mom: I WANNA SEE MY KIDS, MY KIDS! 

And when she said that I started to wonder if she was going start so cry or..

She starts to cry. 

Walks out. Smashes the door.

I'm combing my hair since I got out of the shower.

Dad: I swear to god, hundreds, thousandths of times have I thought of manifacturing a key to her but what if she comes in the middle of the night an-

Me: I know dad, I know, I know the risks.

 

I want to rant.

I want to rant about my life.

My ty live.

My ty grades.

My stress.

My depression.

Do I bother to?

I don't know.

But I want to rant about the way I'm acting my way though life.

And the way my friends hurt me saying I'm not the only one who's having it hard.

And I know. 

We ALL come from ed up familys.

But DON'T you ever think that I don't know that.

Beacuse THE thoughts I have are the only one's that are keeping me alive.

Keeping me from drowning from everything.

I know there are people starving and dying.

And some other not so mainstream problems I KNOW ABOUT.

I KNOW THEM ALL.

Children are living in poverty,there are forced marrieges, there are deseases - even the smallest ones who can the living breath out of you.

You want to go out with your friends but you cant becuase off your family, you don't have any money, you need to study, EVEN THE SMALLEST THING -you don't have any clothes to wear. Even though your wardrobe is full.

That are peoples problems and worries, which seem so unimportant and shallow in my eyes but I still know that those small things can break people down.

Piece by piece.

So

Don't 

You

EVER.

Say that I'm not the only one whose having it bad.

I KNOW IT ALL.

 

...But

I AM HAPPY.

But at the same time I'm breaking down.

Beacue I am sad.

But I am a posetive person, I didn't learn to be posetive.

I have always functioned that way.

By the thoughts ''It could've been worse'' and ''Someone is having it worse.''

I KNOW ALL OF IT.

MY THOUGHTS ARE REFLECTING MY KNOWLEDGE ABOUT EVERYTHING I KNOW.

I am praying for you.

I hope you are praying for me.

Because I need your support and your blessing as much as you need mine.

 

But I hope for YOUR SAKE (you know who you are.) that you don't ever find this.

You know the reason why.

At least I hope that.

Beacuse I told you once.