I'm used by this kind of nightmare...

it always came almost every night... in my dream..

the same dream came over my dream over and over again...

>> so i was sitting on the grass in a beautiful land... it was very very beautiful, green grasses, blue sky, white thin clouds, colorful flowers, stream of the river and waterfall, playful butterflies, i was in wonderland if i could describe it as.. you might think it was a very nice dream,.. yes, it was at first..

 but the nightmare came, i ran away from the sudden darkness behind me. It chased me even so fastly and i hardly could run. You know it was hard to move in dreams -,- But then the darkness of shadows caught me and i was drowning in the pitch black sea. I couldn't breath, but then i opened my eyes. I was in my room. I breathed in and out, in and out.

 If you think that was just the drem, no, you're wrong.. very very wrong..

 so i walked out of my room like usually, did my morning routines, and i was ready to go to school in my casual clothes. I was about to knock at my parents' door when i heard a quiet sobs inside. And my father's loud "sushh..." and i could tell my mom is crying by now. And my choice is to not to come inside. I'm not good at calming people down from crying. So i just went to school like that. but when i came home, my parents took me to somewhere.

 hospital. yes, hospital. I came to the doctor i usually visit to check up on my brain. and he gave me this look i don't really know what its mean behind it. but then a news shocked me...

 "you have Spinocerebellar Ataxia" the doctor said. And that rang in my head. Spinocerebellar ataxia. spinocelebellar ataxia. and after that, we went out of the hospital. that time i'm still didn't really know what's that spinocerebellar ataxia thingy. so that time my parents took me everywhere. Beach, park, mall, and all. I had fun for sure! and that time, when i was in the park. I was running to my parents when i lost my balance like usually. i fell down and my head hit the hard ground. bloods. were all i could see from me. i could see my parents didn't move a bit with tears came out of their eyes they only cried and looked at me from afar. I want to shout out loud but it didn't come out of my mouth at all. It stuck in my throat and won't come out at all.

 I was stuck in this fantasy where everything's not true, yes  i am. and the next thing i could remember was,.. pitch black. All i could see was pitch black. yes, pitch black. i wasn't sure.... but i cried there. i died and i know it

and that's my dream, everybody~ T_T so sad, it seems so real, so the next day i found myself in front of my netbook, searching on internet "Spinocerebellar Ataxia" and i was like O_O no way. before that dream, i don't even know that kind of illness but after that dream, i even memorized the name even if it's difficult.

SPINOCEREBELLAR ATAXIA

oh well that was just my dream... but what made me confused... that... the "spinecerebellar ataxia" part.. how come it came in my dream just like that?? i didn't even know that kind of name before...