I was wondering; why is it so hard to get close with our own parents? Well in my case I'm not close with my mother either my father. It feels like there's a big wall between us. 

I know I've been talking about this on my other blog post, but something big hit me and made me realize that I've never chat with my parents and joking around and laughing over the joke. And it made me realize that I've never say 'I love you' to them. That sounds rude of me, I know... I know it was all my fault we become like this, I'm not gonna blame any other. You might think it's weird or thinks that something will not happen, but it does happen to me; I feel awkward around my parents.

I'm tired of this, it feels like we're playing hide and seek.