"I'm trying to make this as painless as possible for you Baek.."

Baekhyun laughed softly; "It'll never be painless.."

Hey guise. Guess what---I just finished reading 10080 by EXO bubz...and the first thing that came to my mind is; What was I doing for the past years of my life and I just decided toread this heart-throbbing, heart-breaking masterpiece NOW?!!!!

Oh my God. This piece is just pure perfection...I couldn't even remember which part I started crying. All I could remember is that when I started crying, it never stopped. I was bawling my eyes out the entire time. ( the ballads that I was listening to weren't helping either. ) I am really a complete er for stories which started with a perfectly good setting and then BAM; everything falls apart.

There are many parts and quotes that I really loved about the story. Sorry. Spoilers might be welcoming you ahead:

"But he also knew that Chanyeol didn't make promises he knew he coudn't keep,

yet he still told him he'd be there..."

"We've been married for almost four years Yeol;

One week is all I'm asking for giant."

                                                                 One week. One week is all he wants. All he wants is to feel that he loves him...still. Even if it's just for pretend. Living in a fantasy is better than                                                                    facing the painful reality. Afterall, Baekhyun had always been a fan of fantasies...

"This'll be the last promise you'll ever have to hold for me."

                                                                Aaaawwwwwwwwwwww. Still crying right now actually. He's saying that this is the last---cause...cause...well we all know why!!! Oh Baek, why are                                                                 you doing this to yourself?!! Why? WHY?!!!

Baekhyun had given him the clothes he had left behind.

                                                               Do you know why this is painful for me? It's because I came to realize that Chanyeol saying that those are the clothes he had left behind means                                                                        he never came back...He never even had the chance to come back and get his clothes. All those years, he had left Baekhyun                                                                    alone. and he never threw his clothes away...why? Because he was hoping he would come. He would come and be with him...again. OH no---writing                                                                  these all are giving me back all the feels!!!

I'm still in love with you.

                                                             The binary!! THE FREAKING BINARY!!!!!!! When Baekhyun asked Chanyeol to carve the binary on the tree, just imagine how hurt he must be. Just                                                                    looking at him, carving those numbers that he knows Chanyeol could not understand. But at the end of the day, he just couldn't ring himself to tell                                                                  hm what it means cause it would just make things harder for him---for them. Another point that breaks me here is how much Chanyeol had changed                                                                from their college days. He always used to try ad decipher Baekhyun's binary messages but now...he didn't even bother to ask what it means...

No one promised into taking off clothing for the property lost,

but the laughter and the joke-like insults were all real and no pretend.

                                                           This part gave me the picture of what they might be if it hasn't been for the cruel circumstances that enveloped the two of them. And knowing that                                                              they both know it too doubles the feels I feel for this story. :"<<<<<

"What is there to make up for when all you're going to do

is leave him for another person the bext day?"

                                                         Everything about this scene broke my heart. The way Chanyeol gave him the best night he could offer to Baekhyun, knoiwng that the day after that,                                                            he would leave him alone. The look on Baekhyun's face when he saw what his EX-husband had prepared for him, thinking how things would have been if                                                            they were on a different page. Maybe Chanyeol would be doing these kinbds of things during their anniversaries, or when things were all good or, or if                                                          they broke into a big fight and Chanyeol would want to make it up for Beakhyun. But now, knowing that he is doing this as a farewell present for him                                                              makes him feel worse. Plus the dance...the dance just killed me! They were both crying (actually the three of us ere crying :<) for they both know,                                                               deep inside their hearts...that they wanted a second chance...

"Bye Yeol."

Oh NO YOU DIDN'T!!

"Good-bye Baek."

Leave me alone to DIE in my bed of tears!!!

He was engaged for the second time in his life and Chanyeol admitted to himself that

he didn't feel as happy the second time around as he did around the first time.

I believe I don't need to explain why this part is on my list. Let the broken hearts and wet tears explain it all.

...tears streamed down his face as he realized that the book was their story,

but with the ending that both he and Baekhyun had secretly yearned for in their hearts.

                                                            THIS IS IT!!! THE PART THAT KILLED ME THE MOST. I remember myself putting my face away from the monitor and pause just to calm myself                                                               down. This is just too cruel and painful. This is where all the emotion in the world poured over me and drowned me with all the tears and                                                             the pain in the universe. Oh please!!!!!! 

Bonus part; the author's note on Baek's book a.k.a the ending that should've been:

***

"A certain giant would always tell me that it's pointless to cry at the end of movies

that don't end the way we want because it wouldn't change anything; and I would always ask him

what was so wrong with wishing for a different outcome."

So all in all. This fic destroyed me in every way possible that earlier this morning, I woke up with swollen eyes and puffy eyelids. I strongly recommend it to you guise. I want you to experience what I just experienced. You can find this masterpiece in here:

http://exobubz.livejournal.com/

Please excuse me as I read the sequel. Yeah, sometimes I just want to see my world crash and burn.

Sorry. The lay-out for this post is so messed up. I'll try to fix it some time but now---I'm just gonna agonize myself and read the sequel :">