So my dad had cancer in his leg for a really long time, and its was just a few months ago that he got it removed. 

He is halfway across the world from where I am, and my mom is there to take care of him.

His healing process was going great and he was gonna come back home (to where I am). 

But then a few weeks ago, I began to notice that my parents were keeping something from me.

and finally, today, they told me their little secret.

My dad had gotten lung cancer.

I froze and my mind went blank.

I didn't say anything, and my dad just continued to tell me about how he didnt know how much longer he had. He told me to use my time wisely and that I shouldnt be so childish...to grow up.

I was speechless and I didn't know what to think.

Throughout the past few years, i went through a lot of stuff.

and to put it in short, i guess you could say i was fighting depression...and when it was getting better, this news came along and hit me a billion times harder.

I don't know what to do.

My mind is blank.