*sorry for this, i'm being emotional right now,*

I always ask myself how much of a KPOP fangirl i am, and doubt will fill my head, am i really a kpop fangirl? I am not the type to buy all of my fandom's merch available, I don't allot time to have a marathon of my bias' show. I'm not the type to stay up until midnight to wait for the new releases and to participate to trending projects. i don't go to airport whenever idols arrive. I don't stalk them at the hotel or whenever they go. And I haven't gone to any concert in my 7 years of being a fangirl.

I believe that the hype of my fangirl life is yet to come because I haven't done all the crazy things that a fangirl should do. I mean, yes, it's not required but i feel like my fangirl experience wouldn't be complete without doing those things.

And that hype that I'm waiting for is I hought would be this year. I'm old enough not to ask permissions from my parents to go anywhere. I have enough money to buy anything I want, but I still don't LOL.

I have planned this long time ago, the first concert I'll be going to would be my bias's. And 2NE1 will be having a concert here on their anniversary. Any BJ will be very very excited.

I myself is super excited that I rendered over time during my rest days to have extra money for the ticket (because the ticket price is just gold for me) and other concert paraphernalias. Everything is computed and planned. But the moment I saw our payslip,,, I just cried. AHAHA. In our office where everyone can see, I cried. All the over times I had weren't credited that my money is not enough to pay for the ticket that I reserved.

This was the second time I cried here in work, first is because of SJ's concert and now 2NE1's. In our house, I rarely cry as well, but when I do, it's because i'm reading a very good fan fiction or I am seeing my bias on our television. Or my parents will say something about me being a fangirl at this age. heh.

I don't know but i can get really really emotional all just because of KPOP. Everyone here might think my problems are such a waste of time, but I don't care, and will never care what they will think. That's when I realized, even though I don't put much effort being a fangirl, KPOP have managed to place first place in my heart. And yes I'm chessy like that.

Being a fangirl doesn't show on the quantity of paraphernalias that you have (though it's really a bonus) but on until when you are going to love them. My 7 years mght be short for others, but for me, it's really a long time already, that it feels like forever and it's an achievement for me to stay loyal to one thing. And that's KPOP.

So again, if i ever I'll ask myself how much of a fangirl I am, I can proudly answer myself I am a hardcore KPOP fangirl, in my own way.