Hello my lovely subbies and friends~

As you may or may not have noticed, I started updating one of my stories after about a 2 week or so hiatus. That being the case, please don't think that I will not get back to my other stories and start updating them once again. 

Now that that's out of the way...

Here's the thing...

I kind of want to explain to you guys why I suddenly went on hiatus in the first place because I know it was completely out of left field.

The day I decided to go on hiatus, I was honestly overwhelmed by life at that point. I was really getting into preparing for midterms and for spring break, family issues were happening, work issues were happening, and I was starting to lose my spark to write. Now, all the personal junk and school stuff, I can handle. I'm pretty good at managing that and keeping that in order. What I wasn't able to handle all that well was the CONSTANT bagering I was getting about updating my stories. Now, for those of you that have been with me since I started writing on here, you know I'll be the first to admit that I can be pretty bad at updating when I get caught up in my personal life and I'm CONSTANTLY apologizing for having large gaps of time between my updates.

This is not news, right?

But something was different about this time.

I'm not gonna lie, the bagering for updates honestly wore me down. I would only get more and more pissed off the more comments I got about updating and PM's I got about updating. And that did nothing to help bolster my creativity and make me want to write anything at all. But the straw that broke the camel's back came with taking on the responsibility of writing Subbies Choice. Now, the reason for my stress is partially my fault. I would tell people when to expect their oneshot to be posted and I would get pestered about when it would be posted. Even if I posted it late at night, I always posted the oneshots on that Saturday, did I not? [Unless I talked to you and told you otherwise] But dealing with the bagering and messaging with the: 'when is my oneshot gonna be posted? when is my oneshot gonna be posted?' , really started to drive me crazy. But that's partially my fault and I take complete and total responsibility for that. 

But the kicker was doing that last oneshot for Subbies Choice. That one was very stressful for me. As I just said, it's my fault for telling the requester of that oneshot to expect it that particular Saturday. And I did post it REALLY late. So that's my fault. I was even expecting the messages inquiring when the oneshot would be posted because again, I didn't post it until really late.

What I wasn't expecting, however, was the lack of response from the requester. Every oneshot I've written for someone for Subbies Choice so far has at least said SOMETHING to me about the oneshot. Whether they liked it, didn't like it, loved it, hated it, wish something was changed, something was different. SOMETHING. But most often from my requesters, I've heard a 'thank you for taking the time to write my oneshot'. And I heard absolutely NOTHING from this requester. 

Not a word.

Nothing.

And it pissed me off. It pissed me off so much that I went and put all of my stories on hiatus. I needed a break from AFF, from my subbies, from writing. I just couldn't deal with it anymore. I got so angry with that, coupled with my personal life, that I was getting sick, wasn't sleeping, eating bad, all that kind of junk. It was a bad time for me. But I'm doing better now, so no need to worry. 

During my hiatus, I still wrote, but I didn't want to be bothered with updating because I was still really pissed off. I also get upset when I update and don't get really any feedback on my stories. But that's a complaint I've had for ages now, but it was just blown out of proportion because I was so irritated about Subbies Choice.

So to kind of explain what's going on now, I'm not FULLY off of hiatus yet. I'm not ready to deal with updating stories and the bagering and all that yet. I'm heading into midterms, I'm preparing to graduate in May with my Associates degree in English, and I'm transferring to another college to start working on my Bachelor's degree. My life is on the move and it is taking up a lot of my time. So, I feel like jumping totally back into updating all of my stories on hiatus at once will blow up in my face and end up in a catastrophe and I don't want that. Why? Because I honestly do care about my subbies and the friends I've made here and what you all think does matter to me. I love writing and I love writing for all of you and I want to be able to write to my best and to give you all the stories you want to read.

I would go into a lot more detail, but I don't really think that's needed honestly. If you have any questions, you're all more than welcome to ask and I'll try my best to answer. For those of you that have been here for me, more than I'm possibly able to go into writing out here but I know you know who you are, thank you SO much for being supportive and encouraging everytime I'm going through something. It means more than you know. I'm not one to blurt out my personal life here, but I am one to gripe about my frustrations with writing and all I can do is be thankful all of you are ready, open, and willing to listen and be understanding and I couldn't be more thankful for that.

So before things get too sentimental...

Again, THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH!

And look out for updates in the future. I'll be back better than ever~

Until then, lovelies...

SARANGHAE~!