Maybe it is just me that is getting paranoid, after all the Antihistamine that I am taking daily, I feel like I’m getting overly depressed easily, but after seeing how most of my artwork are being ignored over Tumblr, despite gaining followers… It seems to me that something similar is happening now over twitter too.

Lately I have been getting busier and busier with work, so it is really hard to be working on the updates or be on twitter and stuff like that…

So maybe it is my fault. I don't talk to people as often like I used to, even if I always try to continue the conversation. But it is a fact that every time I post a spoiler or anything of those sort, I get lesser and lesser replies… So I really don't see why I have to keep on posting spoilers on Twitter, where seeing such a reaction just makes me question about the quality of my work. My art and stories, everything I’m doing, depends a lot on the encouragement and replies that I receive back… I really can't do things without any support, so I prefer to not do it anymore.

So as for now, and I don't know for how long more, I’ll post my teasers on a new story on AFF, and it would only be by invites.

I’ll "write" a new story with invitation only for every chaptered comics (maybe for the Broken collaboration too, I have to ask to crime-tsumi about this) and will be deleted when the comic will be complete.

It’s with no doubt that the invitation will be send first to those who have upvoted the story, because they are giving points to support me so I’m sure that’s the least they deserve, following up to the friends who have been supporting and cheering me up.

If you don’t fall into either categories, you can request for the invite, but only if you are willing and sure to comment… Because if I have to do all this tedious acts and to only be in the same situation as before, even if I love to share with everyone my works and spoilers, I’ll stop doing so.

Throwing away the idea of creating a new story because there’s a limit to the number of people I can add into the story, and it wouldn’t be fair to all if I didn’t add anyone in. This would mean I would proceed with plan B: Creating a new locked twitter account specially for the teasers. Likewise, only those who are interested in receiving the teasers should follow the account. I would hope that comments and replies would be given when teasers are posted, and I would reply them too! To those AFF-users who do not have twitter accounts, I’m sorry to exclude you out from this. Sending teasers via PM is taking up too much time, and I don’t always get replies back too and is hard for me also to reply you back.So if you are willing to share a little love to me when I upload the teasers, you can follow me on my new Twitter account: @Mariabagnale84. All requests will be accepted, but random checks will take place occasionally. I will delete and block people who do not comment or reply. Sorry for being so harsh, but I’ve no choice.

My life is already hard and tiring before having to do all these.

Okay? Sorry for random outburst, maybe some of you will be shocked since I’ve never acted like this before, and probably spoiled you all too much with all the teasers and continuous updates… Maybe that’s where the problem lies, I’m being taken for granted.

Maria

PS. added by limminhyo (Maria’s Beta for her comics)
I’m sure this whole incident may come quite of a sudden to many, especially when Maria herself don’t have the habit of voicing out such feelings on twitter or anywhere else. But to all artist, be it for fanfiction, fanart, fancomic, fantranslation, fanaccounts, or anything contributed by fans, we are doing this as a hobby, not as an obligation. Please bear in mind that Maria isn’t paid, none of us are being paid to satisfy the readers’ wants and needs. Sometimes, all we want is a little recognition, a small pat on the back, or a simple comment. Trust me, it really makes a huge difference to our day. The feeling of being wanted, being awaited by someone out there in the world (maybe this is a little exaggerating, but you get my point of being noticed) makes us happy. And that’s human nature. I’m sure everyone, be it in school, at home, or in your offices, you want to gain recognition for what you have done, don’t you? It is like working hard for a test and wanting to score well, or helping your parents to do some chores and gaining extra internet hours for it. It’s the same for Maria. She works hard to draws and write for her readers because she likes it, but when she don’t receive the responses she feels that she would get, it demoralises her. We are probably not asking for much, but just a simple comment. Every time you read her comic, comment about what you think, what should be improved, or what you want to see. We take all those into consideration. I maybe speaking for Maria, but I guess this would also apply to any fan out there who is doing their part for the fandom itself. Be appreciative.

Min