I Need Help

Guys, in school when I first moved, I had 4 best friends. 1 left for China, 1 had a knew best friend and abandoned me. 1 stayed with me but often played with other people and 1... Let's say she liked playing with boys...
So than, the girl who liked playing with boys one day teased me and honestly told all her other friends that I was triple-timing* but it wasn't true. All her friends starting 'shaming' me and I had no idea why.
After she did it like for 3 months, she stopped because she had 'no time' for me anymore because of this old boy I liked. Than I was behind her and said that she liked that boy now. So than she cried.
I didn't know until after first break but she started crying to herself. Now everyone's against me because I was the only one who had been in contact with her for the last 10-20 minutes.
That boy apparently got over protectived and confronted me but saying about me and how I shouldn't do it to her because she didn't mean it. I was like, like yeah she was.
But it envolved 2 other people, the boy and this new crush I developed. So while that boy was saying about me, I said some about her back. "Do even know how many months or days she teased me about just because I liked you? (I did, once) Than she told like the whole freaking world! I had to deal with that for 3 months! I only started today and she started crying? Please ." I said that and he stormed off like a little .
Than lunch came and we were in the gym eating our lunch. To get this clear, my new crush has been bullied but a group of boys for 6 years and I don't know how he tolerated that. My crush started silently crying and moments later, I cried like a little .
I had no appetite to eat anymore, it was really painful to handle and I can't even face how much hate I'll get from my friends.
I really want to cut myself.

Please help me... 

 

Additional Information:

Triple-timing means liking 3 boys/girls at a time.

So for more information. Let me start from the begininning;

On the first day of school, I hugn out with 2 friends of mine but 1 left for China and her name was Jane. This other one called Wendy, was really annoying and I was ignoring her so she left me for another girl. After that, I found another friend called Atiya (A-tee-ya) and she sticked with me most of the time but she was ignoring me for her other friends most of the time. That lasted for 2 days until I found another friend called Ivy (Poison Ivy's Ivy.)

They both sticked with me for a long time except Ivy liked gross things and Atiya was more of a comfort friend. That lasted until December. Me and Ivy had a big fight and we didn't talk to each other for 2 weeks. Atiya was with her and completely ignored me for 2 weeks which made me think everyone hated me. Than this guy named Raymond made up ING 6 STORIES ABOUT ME CHEATING ON HIM. And told Atiya which made her become suspicious. Than I told the truth and Raymond was fuming mad. Raymond ignored me until Janurary. For 1 freaking week, he actually saw me and I was existing in his eyes but after 7 days exactly, he pretended I was never in his class. He started liking Ivy and me and Ivy weren't in the best shape. We were friends but not close friends anymore. Raymond and Ivy played with each other most of the breaks and ignored me for a few days. I hung out with this other friend called Maggie.

This friend or not even, Iris, was always on Ivy's side. Maggie had her own friends and she had a very short temper but I always anger her. Iris never hangs around me when I'm not around anyone she likes. Atiya also takes Ivy's side. Just yesterday, Friday, February 28th, 2014, when we were in Soc Studies, me and Ivy, Jeff (My crush), and Raymond were together. Ivy ignored me, Raymond ignored me, Ivy spit profanity's at Jeff, Raymond told Jeff to go away. So it was a group project including a sheet and I asked Jeff for his sheet, he gave it to me and I started asking him why it was full of U.S and China stuff. Just before he answered, Ivy and Raymond went, 'oooooooooh~' and they laughed at me like I was a clown. I asked them why, they said I asked Jeff for a piece of paper.

I asked so? They said, "It's funny!" I was like, "So what? You 2 hang around each other, don't you?" I said and they went silent mode. I gave back the page and Jeff took Ivy's art project than accidently ripped it. I ripped Jeff's Guided Reading pack than Ivy chased him around the classroom non stop. I purposley stepped on Jeff's untied shoelaces and he fell unharmed though. Ivy passed me and went towards Jeff, giving him a stupid lecture. After that, I went to Atiya and she was like, what's wrong. I said my group was the worst combonation ever and Raymond heard me so he was like, "Yeah, becuase you're here." I was like, ", probably cause you liek Ivy now. Mother er." I rolled my eyes at him and I told Atiya how Ivy probably liked Raymond now since their playing together but I was teasing her.

Apparently, she looked at us like she heard nothing and we said nothing cause she asked, 'what'. After the group project was individual work and I was doing my work until Meixi (May-si) came behind me and said that Ivy was crying. I was like, 'why' and she said she didn't know. When I looked up, I saw Ivy glaring at me like someone she hated was behind me. After that, it was done and she purposley pushed me than swore at me. Than Iris asked what happened and Ivy told her that I said ONCE that she liked Raymond. Iris looked over at me and GLARED AT ME. Than Atiya went downstairs for lunch and I went also. Than I heard Ivy saying that Jeff ripped her poster on purpose and how he was a . I was likem 'liar...' but quietly.

Ivy had day care so she didn't eat with us and Jeff was always alone while eating lunch because nobody liked him since he came here. I sat with a annoying boy and one of my normal friends. I took out my lunch and poked hsi around like a toy because I had no appetite. Tony said Jeff was crying and I had no idea but I started crying also. It was like a virus or something. This annoying boy tried to sooth me but it'd never work. My normal friend tried and it never worked either. After that, I stopped and ate my food in silence. Never once was I quiet while eating lunch. Than we watched a movie in the gym and I asked Jeff why he was crying, he said he hated it when people ignored him and thought he was a freak.

Than on the way home, I was with Maggie and she told me how she couldn't facetime me. I was like, "Why." She said that she had to do a video with someone else and I told her to cancel it but she got mad and told me to shut the up. I never thoguht of her saying that and she ran home. I cried again and walked extra slowly that day. I didn't even know why gr. 6 was this hard.

 

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Yoruclaw #1
dont be silly and cut yourself. if you wanna make it into sm, they dont wanna see a scar due to cutting yourself. cheer up girl. you have us... AFF
DayDreamingDeer
#2
Don't cut yourself!
*sigh*
I'm not being much help huh?