Okay I really don't want to post this, but my friends Sarah and Anne have been nagging my girlfriend how we met, and now want to know from my point.

SO I'm putting it here, if you don't wanna read it please don't, actually I kinda would rather you didnt' read it, but here's the story.

Happy guys? -_-

A year and six months ago (give or take a week or two) I joined LadyVamp's RP for Madame Hee Hee's House of Desires

because it was an interesting story, I joined as JaeJoong cause I liked him

I didn't have really anyone to talk to cause there wasn't really much about Jae so I kinda made him up as I went, and soon made friends with Kevin and a few others

Thus the pairing of jaevin formed, it also seemed cool at the time.

The rper of Kevin was kinda cool and sweet, I thought, we talked out of rp in our posts sometimes, and I found out that Kevin lived in Australia, so we could to rp before I left for school and a few hours after I got home from school.

The time difference was a problem, and school would get in the way from time to time since I was in marching band and the took up about half the school year for me

With that said, I would stay up late untill around 1 or 2 in the morning, then get up a bit earlier then normal at around 5 in the morning or so. That would give us a bit more time to talk.

We would also talk late on monday nights after I had late night rehersal and friday nights after I returned from a long and boring football game.

Kevin would stay up late as well, I was worried and I let him know, but it was to no avail as he didn't listen.

But soon that rp began to have problems between people, me being the person I am, I tried to figure out what happened and tried to see if there was a way to fix it.

There wasn't, I think everyone over reacted and missunderstood, no one really took the time to stop and think.

I was sad because out of everyone in that rp, Kevin was the only one who was practically forced to leave.

But I contacted Kevin through DM's, I absolutely hated the new Kevin, it wasn't the same.

So we talked in DMs just as normal. Joongie and Vinnie. 

After a few months we were pretty good friends, I learned that Kevin's real name was Tiahna, an absolutely beautiful name by the way, and I told her my name in return.

From then on we stopped being Joongie and Vinnie to each other.

I had gone through a really wired period during the last half of my senior year in high school. I wasn't comfortable being a girl, I wanted to be a guy.

Out of everyone I told, she was the only one who didn't really tell me no and not to do it and that she would still be my friend. I didn't really talk about her much to my friends cause I knew they wouldn't care, but I thought about her a lot.

By this time I still hadn't seen what Tiahna looked like, but on Valentine's Day last year I finally agreed to send Her a selca. But I dreaded this very much.

Everyone else I talked to online said they were ugly when in fact they weren't.

Even still, this didn't make me feel any better.

We shared a few selcas over the next few weeks. Well, she did anyway, I didn't send her another one for a long time.

It wasn't long until six months had passed since we met, and I was talking more to her than I was to my own friends.

On the night of the 20th of March, I wanted to tell her something, but wasn't sure if I should or not, and I guess she could tell something was different about me.

She kept nagging and bugging me to tell her what was wrong, and finally I did.

I told her I had fallen for her.

I got scared and hid under my blankets, worried like hell that she'd either not like me back, or worse not want to talk to me anymore. I didn't mind if she didn't like me back, I just didn't want her to leave.

I'd thought about girls before, ever since middle school really.

Everyone around me had boyfriends, but that wasn't something I wanted, so I was forever single.

The thought of intimacy with a guy disgusted me.

She told her me she didn't like girls, and I got sad of course, but she said we could try.

I kept telling her she didn't have to if she was uncomfortable with it, I didn't want her to feel like she had to like me back or anything like that, but she said no, she wanted to try.

It took about a day to get a reply, but she had talked with her friend who convinced me and her both to give it a chance. And it seemed we were both happy.

My parents knew I was into girls long before i even told them, at least my mom did, my dad was clueless.

They didn't care who or what I liked as long I was happy.

All my friends knew I liked girls and didn't care. To be honest, she wasn't my first girlfriend, I had one before her at my school. But it wasn't a healthy one and just kinda went to .

She and I broke up and soon I graduated high school and left her and everything else behind. I have not talked to her since.

Anyway, the longer we went in our relationship the more we understood about each other

Around this time I decided to stay as a girl.

She then asked why I chose her out of everyone.

It was because I accepted her as she was back when I wanted to chance her gender and she supported her when I barely knew her. And she seemed like a sweet person.

And now, a year later, I'm the happiest I've ever been, when I used to think I'd die alone.

She tells me how i've changed so much for her, but I don't see it. We're so far apart, that I can't see how it's helped.

But in any case, I don't regret mydesion to be with her, and I couldn't see myself without her. For now we are worlds apart, but I promise and know there will be a day we can hug and hold eachother in our arms. And never let go.

And that's my boring story. Now can you stop bugging me?