Depression hits me

I'm writing this blog for those of my loving, loyal subscribers.

Please ,know that. "Writing is my passion" and I will never stop doing it. I have been experiencing some sort of dilemma between bad luck and depression. Bad luck ,because the situation is not cooperating with me. I am about to say this for the first time. I know that most of you does not know me personally, regardless of my personal profile you only know me as an author of the fanfic that you're reading. There are reasons why I'm not frequently updating. Those days that I' mostly online I update for the span of at least 10 ten days for every chapters. Now I'm really not sure whether I can ever resolve myself to update once more though I really...really badly want to.

My laptop has been taken away from me. That's pretty much the summary of my situation." Taken away " what I mean is my laptop has been temporarily pawned. Yep..I know. Not only I've been depressed about it for more than two months, I even woolgather about it till I fall asleep. I'm not the person who prefers to go out, I'm a couch potato in the other way. I can last a day in front of my laptop just writing and writing and writing and reading stuffs about the internet. BIGBANG, TUMBLR, ASIANFANFIC, YOUTUBE, DAILYMOTION and any other websites you might have probably visit too.

I don't go out. My feet are completely attached on the ground of my house. So you can probably get the picture of how badly I'm depressed...disoriented ...and outcast.

And you get the answer of how I'm not updating. ( BTW...I'm using my Bro's Laptop in the mean time) (that means.."just this time")

And yeah so Depression hits me. Then there goes my Cellphone, which I've brought with me to school. I went out for a few minutes to have a critical thinking test then VOILA.... it disappeared. I even had my fellow classmates to help me lift the place upside down to find it. But with no further success. I didn't. I loved that phone more than my diary. And now myself is all I have. I can only listen to the echoes of my sobbing momentum and no more.

 

I don't know what 2014 is doing to me, but I won't back down. I'll stay strong and gather ideas at the moment that I have nothing but the words that's yet to be written all together once I'm all resolved. I would want to work once I've graduated high school this coming summer but I hardly know any part time jobs, but despite all that, I'll strive to earn money to take back all the things I've lost. And that's all the answers to all the bugging questions in your head.

To all of those people who sent me their private message asking me if I'm still alive. YES I AM. I will rise and let all the sleeping glory in me reign once more. But at the mean time.. stay cool and know that I love you. Thank you for all your support and understanding.

Your loving author,

deniannchoi4ever

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Tabifan #1
Be strong!!!! I'll wait 4 u my dear...fighting!!!!
kai2326 #2
Hang in there!!! we ll wait!!!! STAY AWESOME!
azskmee #3
ohh honeeey, depression hit me hard too :( I know how it feels, i subscribed to your story not hoping that you are going to update every day otherwise i'll kill you and hunt you down, I solemnly love you story and I will wait for it :) I hope you recover soon! LOVE xx
sid912k #4
Authornim,
I hope that you feel better and recover from this tough time. Depression can be s tough thing to go through. Just remember you have a bunch of readers here that support you and appreciate your writing. Stay strong! You can overcome any obstacles with a bit of determination. Fighting!!
cobrablue #5
I really hope you feel better. Things will improve. Remember that. Nothing lasts forever. You'll get over this hurdle and things will be better. This will be just a moment in time.
dntstops #6
Author-nim,
I understand your feelings about being well... lonely, I suppose. That's how I would describe my feelings anyway. And I'm an outcast couch potato as well, so I believe I'd understand. I understand your depression as well, being as the feeling of surrounding oneself with false characters and scenarios while writing is more comforting to me then actual human contact is (and will ever be).
Stay strong, author-nim.

And know that while you soar through high school in your own momentum, I will be living everyday, hoping you soon have the universe align, and everything becomes well in your world.

Thank you for the entertaining stories as well. :)

Yours,
A Usually Silent Reader
uisaokke #7
hwaiting, authornim ^^~
I will wait you until you come back to update it ^^~
stay strong and be more happy now ^^~
coz all of your reader love you tooo ^^~
*smile*
hwaiting!!!! :)
pubertycheck #8
We'll all be waiting for you to update Author-nim! Hwaiting!! Stay strong :')
lovexoxo65 #9
Authornim pls stay strong and fight your depression away. I know its easier said than done but I will continue to support u with all my heart. I may not know u personally but stay strong and pls pls pls come back to us healthily! Will always be waiting for you! Take your time to recover! Hwaiting!!!! <3
Cherrytoms #10
Hey! New reader here ^^
I do appreciate the effort to continue the story despite your struggles. Reading your story, I do realize there are couple similarities to the book, fifty shades of grey, especially some scenes. Perhaps you may draw inspiration from the book but its always good to write your own style. I do know you have a unique way of writing and I pleasantly hope you may further focus on your personal thought of storyline and not fall back onto the same safety net(the book). Though it may be loosely based on the book, theres no harm in exploring your own imagination. That's where new, fresh and unique stories are born.
I am in no way criticizing you or your wonderful story, but giving you my personal suggestion. I sincelerely wish you will get my point across nicely and not in any way be slightly offended. Once again, this story has much great potential and I'm looking forward to your updates.
Thank you for making my day with your story. :)
khadijasdfghjkl #11
omg depression is really something we shouldn't ignore. stay strong, we'll always support you and dont give up on writing author-nim!! fighting!
Prettyreckless #12
Stay strong authornim, I pray for you to have all ur belongings & ur happiness back love you
rumputliar #13
Everythings gonna be alright authornim...
Keep strong... :)
JokerWifey #14
Oh god i'm crying :(
Author-nim, be strong. Who knows that you might earn something big out of this. I'm writing this as a friend maybe. I really do wish I could give you some strength to keep on going. Everything happens for a reason right? I don't mind waiting for you because it worth it. Good luck and may god bless you :)
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