Life's really latey. 

It's not because I haven't been trying to be happy it's just because everything is completely changing.

For starters, my dad is moving out and my mom, her fiance, their kid, and my sister are moving in. So this basically means I'll probably only see my dad once every two weeks because his girlfriend always has to see him and that we'll probably never get any closer. Moving on because I don't want to cry haha. The people moving in are going to kick my the whole time because they're es. My moms fiance is the only one who can sacrifice anything for anyone, but he gossips and gets angry with people and I can already hear his whispers to my mom about how unproductive, hermetlike I am because I stay in my room due to having no friends. And I can hear my mom insulting me and yelling at me for every small thing and attempting to throw my cats out while my sister gives no s. I can see her ruining my bathroom and pissing on my life with her y selfish personality. And so while I'm suddenly thrown in a locked cage with wild animals I must also protect my cats and find a possibly place for them to stay during college. And then there's the issue of money and going to prom alone becaue all of my friends want dates and don't want to just go with friends because that's lame. 

But you know what's kind of good? I'm not feeling suicidal about all this. I just kind of hate where I am in life completely. I hate what's happening and what's changing and how I'm going to have to live with people who will not give me a second to breathe or just a ing second to relax and try to get over this sadness and confusion of people that has been plaguing me since I was in 7th grade. I have been recovering lately but who knows how ing ty it's going to be in the next few weeks or months. And while i'm not suicidal now for once I honestly wouldn't doubt planning my death in the next few weeks due to this feeling of being stuck in the that is my life. 

And I just want to cry! I just want to cry all the ing time because of how distressed I am over this because there's no one to listen or care because if I even begin to mention my problems I just receive a ing "oh". REALLY? THAT'S ALL YOU HAVE TO ING SAY? EVEN IF I DIDN'T KNOW SOMEONE AND THEY TOLD ME THEIR DAD WAS MOVING OUT WITHOUT ANY POSITIVE CONNOTATION I WOULD GIVE MORE THAN ING "OH" YOU SELFISH PIECE OF "FRIENDS"

I'm done u__u