Now, I know this might not me important to most, nor as sad or depressing as others, but this is my story so far and i just want to share it. :D

I have been in the same school for nearly 9 years. It was an elementry and no I wasn't held back, For educational reasoning at least.

My frist year of like daycare I can't remember much, but i can say that i stuck out like a sore thumbsince I just turned like 3 and everyone was 4 going on 5.

My next year I was finally with my age group. I only talked to 2 people though. Sarrah and Megan I believe, still i felt like I didn't belong >.< Looking back I didn't play with them outside the class room. There was this big rock under a tree that looked out into the big kid area, and I just sat there staring into that place for days. Sarrah was a switch from homeschool and there and Megan was kind of the same. {since they were cousins} Near the end of the year, I met Emily. Now we didnt get along the first day we met. We fought about like this bike and she shoved sand down my thoat and I shoved sand into her clothes >.< The next day and days after we seemed to click and all I could remember was us smiling and laughing while playing house.

In Kinder my gramma helped out in class so everyone IN CLASS was sweet to me. At recess though if my friend Summer wasnt there i tried to play with the others like Carolina and stuff. Emily was sadly in the other class, but during class combonations we were really happy. While playing with Carolina one time she got mad at me from gettion so much attention from the teacher or something. she talk to me days on after. I talked to her after a couple days and she agreed to play. She told me to cilmb onto the monkey bars. Boy, that was a mistake. I fell off and got a black eye.

In Kinder we had this thing called reading buddies, who were thrid graders. I hid from mine, Hunter, for weeks until later. I remember him trying to look for me along with Miranda who was new and I was hiding in the closet of bathroom. >.< my best memory was Summer, Miranda and I on the swings and Miranda and I with hunter reading science books outside.

1st was i would say a bit worse. At first i was in this class with Mrs.K all was nice, but during the first month or so i finished about four of the work books while the class was like on the 1st or second >.< I remember this girl named Jessica and she didnt like me, but for running arons and stuff she begged me to bring her along. Then my parents swtiched me out to Mrs. C's class who was my older brother's first gradt teacher. I didnt know anybody nor did I talk to them. well except for gabby but I cant remember.

The next year my older bro flunked cuz he was too young for 3rd and he got into the same classes asthe kids from my 1st preschool year. It was odd for me since I was in a combo class and my reading teacher was the mom of my Aunt's bestfriend so I got teased for that. I don't understand why, I just was.

4th was not so well. My best friends, Tyler,Gabby,Alison, Bilqees, and Tara fought constantly whcih just bugged me everyday and I heard this all the time.it bugged me so much. I later joined the after school program and befriended the queenka who made a "sisterhood" which held Emily. During the rest of that year and the rest of 5th grade I knew rthey were using her. Maddison {queenka along with Michelle and Ani} talked rude things to me about her and I tried to warn her but she got mad at me. Like alot. We didnt talk for weeks and then I finally gave up and just ignored. Later my friend Nick and I became close and was near the point of dating >.<, but we didnt want to cux it was too awkward. I can't remember much nor do I want to talk about it

but I really started to hate my life. I thought about running away and cried myself to sleep a couple nights. Then I got into Kpop. I didn't think much about leaving noor did I cry much, but it didnt help me at school. I begged my mom for me to leave and