I am getting mad at myself, i don't know. I don't know why..no! I know why... I have kind of long lists of not-yet done and updated stories. T..T

The Fashionista Love Story

[Untitled] - I can't find any suitable titles yet. cries.

Elite High School - almost finised but idk how to finish it nicely! cry hard.

Arcana: The Reincarnation - this need to be done till the end but somehow I got caught in chapter one because it's a crap chapter and idk what i've done! it;s a story taken from an idea shop and i feel like i ruin the story.

The Red Strings - another story that i can't even finished. i'm kind of conflicted and confused because i write this story firstly then i wrote [untitled] 'previously known as not a cinderella' but ugh, i am confused of their characters tho this story is different style. 

and not to mention;

TheWritingPanda - my supposedly oneshot collections, i literally fell off from the imaginary tree.

and my shop. i'm a trailer maker but right now, i don't feel like doing a trailer again because somehow i feel in love with codings. cries. and searching for clips is one thing and doing it nicely is another thing and its result is freaking another different thing. and if a redo is a damn another different level! i can't with trailers anymore but i got request from wattpad;s follower ; she wants me to do her a trailer so what's left is one.

and i have dang 3 layout portfolios- one finished, one is for preview and another is my improvement? enhancement? idk.. for layout making! yes, i saw the codes from earlier layout and compare it to the latest one. freaking different. 

then again i have a layout shop in which i handle alone. idk. but it feel nice tho since i love layout but i will revamp that shop very soon.. umm.. maybe after this?  then again, i have this AWESOME mind so I restore or drafted a story tittled "T - E" ahaha... pft! thats just its abbv. with sad genre.. fesh! i remember my story 'The Sky and The Ocean; i havent updated that one because it's in my wattpad. T.T 

I really love actually when people said my story is nice and great. i freaking love it but when people typed, update soon.. my mind can't update soon. all the ideas has been resetted and thats why i can't continue it. if i do anyway, it's only half-hearted writings and i freaking hate half-hearted writings and plus, i know my grammar and my flow of words and words choosen aren't really that great, thats why it became another factor that contribute to the laziness of myself as an aspiring writer. but i believe i can not yet calling myself as an aspiring writer since i am not. and when i said i procrastinate, no.. i am not procrastinating love, i am sleeping and ignoring things so i won't write it anymore. i feel lazy and yes, i am a lazy bug. thank you. end of random rant. i cried!