So I don't really know how to start this out... I'm a bit embarassed that I always use excuses for not updating my stories or not being online as much as I use to. And I would say that it's because of school and stuff like that, but I guess in reality I've just been too lazy to do anything that envolves AFF. It , coz I really want to be more active and update my stories on weekly basis like I used to. I also have tones of ideas for new fics but I don't see the point of starting them if I have ongoing ones to finish off, so right now I have about five ideas for new stories but can't share them because of my stupid laziness! I tell myself everyday 'ok today you're gonna sit down and update your story' and so I go sit infront of my computer and just stare at the screen trying to write. Don't get me wrong I love AFF and I love to write stories but for some time now it feels like I have been forcing myself to write just so that I can update and make my readers happy and I believe that if you force yourself to do something nothing good and meaningful will come out as a result. I could update more often but that would mean that the story wouldn't be as good as I want it to be and it would just be forced. I don't know why it happened though, since at the beginning I was always so excited to write and see that my readers want to see more, but right now it feels like I'm letting you down since I'm such a lazy and for that I'm sorry.