ok i just need to rant even if no one reads this the fact that im getting it off my chest is somewhat relieving

WHY IS LIFE SO GODDAMN HARD?

JUST THINKING OF IT MAKES ME FEEL SO STRESSED. 

im actually a really laid back person and i dont get stressed easily

and even when i am stressed no one can tell since i look the exact same.

IS THIS EVEN STRESS? I DON'T KNOW CUZ EVERYTHING JUST FEELS SO GODDAMN CONFUSING.

sometimes i just don't know what im doing with my life...

where i'm headed....

will i even function when theres no one pushing me?

I feel like i have no security in my life

im not super smart nor am i super pretty nor am i super talented/sporty

what happens to people like me?

I don't work hard nor do i plan to...

call it laziness but its just the way i am and even though i've tried relentlessly to change it...i can't

....the reason im saying this is because

i have 2 essays due tomorrow that i havent started and my major work is falling apart just like i promised myself  i wouldnt allow

so im making a vow to myself right here:

No more leaving everything to the last moment

no more spending 10h straight on the computer watching kpop OR ANYTHING KPOP RELATED

from now on only 4h a week on kpop (DONT JUDGE. ITS ONLY FOR EXO SHOWTIME, THIS IS INFINITE AND EMERGENCY COUPLE <3)

get yourself together.

"You may think exo is the most important thing to you now but you'll regret it later. So study hard now and meet us again proudly in the future."
-Kai