Oh my god WAE do I do this to myself? Like seriously. 

So I really like this guy (I feel like a middle schooler talking about this, really) and he sits next to me in my spanish class. His name is Travis and he's super cool and nice, a real gentleman. Haha he opened the door for me in class yesterday and man I tried really hard not to blush over something so silly, but I really like the guy--couldn't control my body function! 

*sigh* But I'm scared to persue...pursue(?) this since the last guy I liked totally played me and my previous bf cheated on me (still scared and hurt). It's hard for me to open up to a guy--or anyone in general--because I don't want to get hurt...WHICH IS WHY IM SUCH A FREAKING LONER WITH NO REAL LIFE FRIENDS. *huff* 

But Monday, I'm gonna take a chance. Gonna ask him for his number (that's a really big deal for me guiz, like whoa what) and hopefully not make a fool of myself. Ha. Did I mention he's 21? And super attractice? *wink* (He's got freaking abs, I saw him in the school gym while I was walking by OMGIMNOTCREEPYISWEAR I'm not a stalker >,>......) 

AAAHHH

e.e 

Crazy.