The moment when you looked at your 'old friend' pictures and you realized that he is quite handsome and you are just plain ugly and you used to like him and maybe now too!! Ugh! These feeling! WHY?! WHY?! You know I hate him! But why? 

I sat beside him when we were 12 years old. Well, not our choices! At first, I sat behind him with my friend, but because of his talkative mouth and his friends too, the teacher told me and my friend to sit beside him. He sat between us! Trapped! Ahahaha! ^^ And you know what the teacher said to me when she asked me to sit beside him? 'I believe that you can change his behavior! I'm counting on you!' Wait! What...?

He.. That boy! That stupid boy! He likes pink color! Yes people! He loves pink! I guess! Because his bottle is pink and his lips is pink (maybe he wears lip bump)

But you know, guys looks so cool when they wear a long sleeve shirt and they roll up their sleeves till their elbow.. We were both prefects that time. And we have to wear this very thick blazer! Even in the class! But of course, we don't listen! It's too hot! And yes! He rolled up his sleeves till the elbow. He looks cool from the side view! Especially when he writes.

But this boy! He is such a jerk! Total jerk! I mean! He... teased me a lot! He called me names! Not bad names! In that school, it;s a trend to call people with their father's name! My dad's name is ahmad! So, he and his friend called me 'Ahmad al bab' 'tonmgkat ali' and others. I called him 'rojak!" because his father's name is.. i don't want to tell!

And he even caused me trouble! Because of him, I got scolded in front of the class, in front of many people! I had to stand up! Ugh! So embarrassing! I will choke him the next time I see him! And he even read my diary! After he reads my diary, he looked at me and smile like a fool! "Here! My friend and I read your diary!" he smile innocently! Ugh! And guess what's inside my diary! I wrote about my ex-crush! Oh my gawwdd! So embarrassing!

He is very active in curriculum! He is a very fast runner! And he always got number one for running! And he is good at football too! Many girls like him because he is handsome and good in sports! Blablabla.. But at that time, I don't know what's so attractive about him! What I know at that time is that, he is a JERK! Though at that time, I have feelings for him.. a bit!

Okay, as I was saying! He injured himself! His legs.. i don't know what happened to his legs! But, he had to undergo surgery! And he has to use the sticks.. the two sticks.. i don't know what it's called. and his mom came to school everyday! 

He.. Well, I know that he was in a great pain! What do you expect? He just got a surgery! So, that time, during Maths, he cried! Not like a girl of course! He almost screamed. Because damn! It was too painful! I can just say it by looking at his face! That time, I sat two rows in front of him, because I want to talk with my friends. When I heard him crying, I turned my head behind and just stared at him blankly. He realized that I was staring at him and he shot me a glare with his teary eyes. "What are you looking at? You've never seen a person cry, is it?" he scolded! But of course, not in a cold tone. He sounds..rather cute! Lol! *What is wrong with me?*

And after 2 years of not seeing each other, we finally met, coincidentally at a shopping mall. We met during December. I was standing in front of an escalator because there is an arcade in front of the escalator! So, while I was standing, waiting for my brother to pay for the tokens, I turned my head to the left and saw him smiling at me as he walked past me with his other friends! Well, I'm not sure if that is a smile. A smirk? Not really? It looks like a smile! Oh! Yeah! He is now in same high school as my brother! Yerp! He know my brother! Ugh! Why?! 

Why do I have to meet him again!? WHY?!