OK, I came to talk about teacup again. He was actually my old crush. I talked about him quite a lot, most of my older posts were about him but I took those all down. It just made me better. Didn't wanna look back and see the mean things he did haa.

But now, I don't know? I'm talking about him again. No, not that I like him again. It's because he's being....terribly nicer....it makes me uncomfortable. 

Weird, right? I'm pretty sure if that was your former crush and he was nicer to you now you'd probably be happy. For me though....it's so....uncomfortable I want to avoid him and never talk to him or get close to him physically and socially.

On the first day of school I didn't so much talk to him except somewhere in the middle of the day where I accidentally "bumped" into him. We just exchanged a smile, or he was the one who smiled and I was like, half-heartedly smiling. At the end of the day, it happened again. He asked me something or what, and I just smiled awkwardly and hurried past him trying to go to my bus line. I caught a different bus from teacup. I didn't catch his bus. I felt him staring at me smiling to someone when I was about to leave though. Ugh...

But the day after that, we talked more. I was really....taken aback. I couldn't speak to him. Kinda annoyed and mad at him talking to me to be honest haha. I planned not to talk to him but gosh, he just makes a way for me to speak. At lunch break, I took my backpack out because I had P.E, so I had to take my sports uniform with me. While I was walking someone scared me.

And guess who? Yup, teacup. He held both my shoulders for a while and let go. He walked away smiling and laughing. That wasn't cool, man.

I caught his bus and we talked in the line, while the guy who likes me was sitting beside me. Teacup just gave cheeky smiles at him from time to time so I got what he was trying to say to him. To think I was stupid...ha!

Teacup asked about my classes and I did the same too. I also happened to play with a pin that was pinned on his backpack. He told me to give it back to him and I said I don't plan to give it, but he seems to know me and said that I'll give it back anyway. He was also comparing heights with me. When we were freshmen, I was a tad bit taller than him. I guess it makes him happy that he's like taller than me. He grew a lot actually, I'm surprised. He mentioned something weird too. 

Because last year he took my scarf for a few days and bit on it without a care, I took his jumper for 2 days. Yup, over the weekends. But he mentioned his jumper to me again and told me it smelled like me, and he added that it smells good and sometimes he smells it. Okay, who wouldn't be creeped out by that? And the guy that likes me just laughed beside me. But then I remembered he doesn't have a reason not to find that weird because I borrowed his scarf for a bit cause I forgot mine and then he goes telling me that I made it smell good. 

I really should take others' belongings anymore. But lol, I took the pin on his bag HAHAH. I shouldn't back down on my word.

When my bus arrived I stood and walked and he did the same thing he did to me at lunch. He was gently pushing me while holding on both my shoulders. I tried shrugging them off and his hands did come off eventually.

He didn't tease me so much, except he told me I looked more paler now (meaning that he saw me as a dark person that's racist justtjoking)

So yeah, that's all. Just wanted to talk about it since it makes me so uneasy. Now that I did, I feel a bit better. ^____^