I don't the i told you so's, I just need the comfort and love of a parent that you are. Yes I understand that you are trying to teach me a lesson and that I should learn from my mistakes, but I can't do it if you constantly wound me emotionally and tell me that you should have known better.

yes I know I'm young, yes I know I'm stupid, yes I know I Need to be attentive, but I want myself to grow at a rate where I don't feel like I have to live up to expectations. I wished I listened. I wish I paid attention, but I also wish you were there to help and be the supporting parent a that you should be when your child is like this. You want your child to be okay, not to feel like she is stupid and not wanted from the world. You should be happy that I'm still here and ranting about you in here when it could have taken a whole new route and this post would have not exist. I want you to feel lucky that even though it was the second this week. And fifth time overall. That it can happen to anybody. Yes there is gonna be faults happening.. But that's how life works, we can't predict and we can try to prevent, but it'll find a way to happen in the end,