I'M HAVING REALLY BAD ZICO FEELINGS BECAUSE I WANT TO CUDDLE AND HUG HIM BUT I ALSO WANT TO HAVE VICIOUS WITH HIM AND IM CRYING BC I ING LOVE HIM BUT I ING HATE HIM AND I DON'T WANT TO GET TOO EMOTIONALLY ATTACHED BUT WELL I THINK I'M FOUR YEARS TOO LATE BECAUSE DAMN IT I LOVE HIM WITH ALL MY BEING AND I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO BECAUSE HES NEVER GONNA NOTICE ME AND IT JUST PAINS ME SO MUCH BECAUSE HOW CAN I BE SO IN LOVE WITH SOMEONE I DON'T EVEN KNOW BUT I KNOW HIM SO WELL PLEASE KILL ME NOWI HATE MYSELF SO MUCH