I love you so much Minny.
*huggles you forever*
I may not be online much now as I am travelling, but you are always in my mind because you're always be my sweet Minnie.
PM me even if you only want to rant? Please?

yeah, I agree. I think it's about your body hormone. sometime I also feel like you, want to cry. I think maybe you should do something that can make happy and don't stop do that until you forget about it. It's work for me.

Mayb your hormones are unbalanced? Or it could be like your period or seomthing girly like that?

It's ok, I feel the same way sometimes. Like I even push my friends away and don't talk to them then get all depressed they don't talk to me but then it goes away. Like I said, hormones. It could be your age like growing (although idk how old you are, I'm almost 18 and this still happens to me.)

But yknow why they tell you that youre lucky and that you should be happy with what you have? It's because - and you might not see it - they're suffering in their own way too. And when humans suffer, they think the rest of us have it better off than themselves. Well, they're wrong in that. But they're right when they say be happy with what you have. Yknow why? Because if all of us switched lives just cuz we werent happy and think the other person's life is better, we're gonna be as miserable as we were in our own actual lives. I don't know if you understand why I say that, but its true.

You silly girl. I love you, seriously. Why do this to yourself? It hurts me to see you like this. You know, I've been there before, that self hating part. And what do you mean emotionless? You want to cry. You're sad inside, you just don't seem to realize it. Have you ever thought that you might be scared of your own emotions, of feelings? Maybe thats why. You might have locked them up, away and hidden in some dark corner of your heart. Or maybe it's because you don't want to show weakness to everyone so badly, you...try to rid yourself of what you think is weakness and run from it even when only you see it? Well, I don't know. You're not me and neither am I you. Everyone, almost everyone would say "I've been there" or "I know how you feel" but even then, what everyone feels is different, how they are affected by what they've been through is different. You're gonna have to expect "I dont know"s. To know how it feels is one thing, to feel the same is another. No one can answer that question except yourself. And, feelings can't be forced or cured. Liking or loving someone, it's one of the things that hurt us most at times and at the same time make us feel like we'd never be more happier. It's something that life is gonna slap you in the face with when someone catches your heart, eyes and breath. You cant go like, "I like /insertname" or be like "Hey chingu, help me like someone" or try to screw your mind chanting "I like /insertname/" because im sure that doesnt work although it seems like you can psycho yourself into it (lmao). You can't feel like that for someone just by...you know, all that and everything else. In fact, why ruin or force one of the most precious things in the world? Feelings. Emotions are what make us...us. And it makes us human. Some feelings are what gives us the reason to survive. I dunno what to say actually so I mightve babbled while attempting to knock some sense into you and make you feel better. Fail attempt I know.

your fine girl, evryone feels this way at one point. If your friends don't know the problem you have to tell them. THe boy thing is one thing, but what you are is depressed that you don't have someone in your life. I know that feeling, the want for something you don't have. Everyone seems to be dating, but you can't seem to muster up the want to do the same. And all at the same time you want someone too. Think about what you want, and then decide what things are more important. Like with a guy, he doesn't have to appear right now. I like to watch movies for my romance dose. dragon was right others may have it worse but your allowed to have feelings and want things. It doesn't make you selfish just human. look if you have things to talk about and nobody else will listen, its obvious we will. Just put I need someone to listen and we got your back. So if you need to hate yourself a little go ahesd, cause we'll show you why we don't. cant hate that :)

:(
Do you know why you hate yourself?
I know I used to feel the same way because I thought I would never be worth anything...Liek I was never good enough in academics, in music, even when I worked so hard...
This year I've been a bit happier because I actually made All-state and stuff...but I've been there.

Min, you don't have to be sorry for telling me your problems.
Just calm down, ok? Just breathe slowly. Why do you resist telling you're friend? She's there, skyping, yet you don't tell her what you've been feeling. I know you aren't going to though. I know you. But listen... Don't rush and force this. Don't rush your liking towards someone. Don't try and force the happiness you should have. And if you want to cry, then cry. You wanna now why you should cry? Because I have it better then you yet I whine and cry about my "ed up" life anyway. So you may not have it bad like others, but you still have feelings. You can't just try and ignore them, ok?
Is this making sense? I don't even think it is.

Now, don't be like that (: