i don't know where to post this because everywhere but here seems so insecure, i hate being judge although the harshness of reality where people judge you 24/7 is normal. 

i am so sorry that i've been ignoring you. i am so sorry that i am being so cold. i am so sorry that i've been avoiding you. it's all because i wanted to mask all these feelings.. most of my friends around me are making me feel awkward because they've been suspecting something peculiar that's happening to me. and mind you, i've never write something so sensible and touche like this before. it almost make me barf. nonetheless, i am so sorry. it's like when i'm attached to someone emotionally, i will find a way to find a space and distance myself more from that person. and that includes you. i would want you to know that you're one of the best people that i've met so far with your bizzare personality and whatnot, your endless meowing. i love you as a human being, a person, and a friend. 

and there you are, at this exact moment on wednesday, jan 22nd 2014 at 7:52pm, i saw your name with a green dot beside in my chat list but since everything has changed now, i don't think i can talk to you again normally. /logs off. 

I WISH I HAVE MORE GUTS.