* shake your head and say no to being a slave to laziness

all those who don't try, wake up right now

you want a high position by just sitting in your room?

this isn't a game. why can't you separate it from reality?

oh yeah~ go around a track

time keeps turning and turning, so far away

only those who are ready can talk 

staying in the same place will only make you regret when you open your eyes..

whoah! one shot!

are you going to be a victim?

are going to get lost?

looking for an easy way out? *

 

that was a lyric from Zelo's rap in one shot. It has really a deep meaning to me.

 

#First ! 'say no to being a slave to laziness'

Yes! I'm that kind of person who's so lazy.... but now, I'm trying to fight with that LAZY thing. I try to be a hardworking person. But if it comes to study.. I'm not that really sure right now. LOL. CHISATO (my nickname) !!! don't be lazy. You're not a smart person. remember ! you just get 7/8 A's only in PMR ! So, focus on your study ! If your brother and sister can do it, why can't you?

 

#Second ! 'you want a high position by just sitting in your room?'

I'm trying to be..... ermm.. I don't know how to say... the suits words.. ermm... people attetion? no. I mean.. I want people see my.. talent ? I want people to see me. Yes. I want people to see me

 

#Third! 'why can't you separate it from reality?'

I.. actually don't.. really get the meaning of this sentence.. but, yeah~ sometimes I hope that those bad memories that I had was just a dream. Those bad side of me. I don't really want to show it actually but.. what to do? It's a part of myself. I hate the feeling of hating my own friends. It makes me feel like I'm the biggest betrayer in the world. Do you think I love it? Do you think I love to talk bad about my friends to others? huh? especially about my friends that always being nice to me.. that always encourage me? sometimes I mad at you and not talking to you because I'm sad. and it hard for me to talk to you back because it hurt me badly. I want you to convince me. I want you to start the conversation. laughing with you. i miss that actually. i'm that kind of person who doesn't talk to you for a week, month or maybe years but still care for you.. more care than the person that always be at your side. i know you more than the person that always with you.. it just i didn't show. why? because i'm an ego person. you can say that i'm really ego

 

#Fourth! 'times keep turning and turning'

I can't waste my time. especially with that kpop things. i try to reduce that kpop thing in my life. i'm not throwing it out ! i just... reducing my 'addiction'? its hard for being a kpoppers. seriously T.T i have my religion. and i have to fill my time  with always do what my God told me to do.

 

#Fifth! 'only those who are ready can talk'

Am i that ready? to talk in public? i still don't have the fully courage. and something is blocking me. the people.. that others always see. why can't they give other person chance to talk? to lead? why it has to be the same person that is standing? 'only those who are ready can talk'? am i that ready to face the obstacle of life? am i that ready to face the people? am i that ready enough? am i... ?

 

#Sixth! 'sitting in the place will only make you regret when you close your eyes'

Hmm...? There's some buch of group that I'm in. from the first time we all met, it was them (some of the people in the group) who lead us. they lead us until sometimes the other member will always follow their word. all decision were made by them. even they have other idea that was better than the 'leader''s idea.. but they don't have the courage to speak. why? why and why? i don't understand. they just keep that great idea in mind. its like 'nah~ forget it. they will never listen to me'. at least ! you have to try

 

#Last! 

'are you going to be a victim?'  NO

'are you going to get lost?'  NO

'looking for an easy way out?'  there's nothing that is easy in this world. even ABC. you have to learn it first right? is that easy to do something without learning it first. life is hard isn't it?

 

Motivation words: don't be lazy, don't waste your time, don't do something stupid, change your attitude to a better person, control your anger, don't care if people are sayin bad to you. always be nice and patient to your friends :)