guise it's storytime~

 

there's this guy I used to like

he used to like me back

we used to be really close (used to as in literally 4 or 5 months ago)

neither of us was ready for commitment

but it was okay bc my parents hated his guts

I couldn't understand that

but yeah

I used to text him and talk to him secretly, and that was fun

then we had a fallout

now it's like we're strangers

and literally its impossible to talk to him alone bc

I know I'll do something stupid

but right before the fallout

I was talking about this really good restaurant in Boston

called Bonchon

and he told me he'd never been there

even tho his friends and basically everyone else had

so I made a deal with him

once I got a job

and he could drive

we'd go there, so he could try it

and we could talk about anything

catch up if we'd been separated.

We both promised we'd do it, and

try not to forget we made the deal

He was really enthusiastic about that idea.

but then we had the fallout

and I forced myself to stop liking him

 

but that deal

 

I literally just realized I'd asked him on a date

how much stupider can I have gotten

I STILL HAVE TO GO ON THAT DATE TOO

that is, if in about 3 years we're still in contact

and he has a car

and I get a job

and i don't forget

and he doesn't forget.

I'm dead.

 

the end.

 

OTL how pathetic is that

I asked somebody out without even realizing i did

isn't it supposed to be the other way around where they don't realize you asked them out

what is life (t.t)